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Chapter Seventy Four

Chapter Seventy Four

Finale.

"Give it a chance. Give life and love a chance."

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"Mthakathi womfazi! I can't believe it, Bangi! All along this woman has been bewitching my family and I for what ye?!" I roared angrily in tears. I couldn't sit down nor did I need to since the rage was just too damn much. "She's out there and I don't care how but Bangi you better find her. I need you to find her."

I kneel in front of him and wipe my tears away. I needed to look him in the eye and have him promise that he would do just that.

I needed his reassurance...anything really that would ensure our safety and security forever.

"Sthandwa Sam, please get up."
"You're not promising me Bangi."
"This woman could be anywhere."
"Anywhere is still your Kingdom, you have people that can bring her to you on a platter," I say and cringe inwardly at me uttering such sickening thoughts out loud.

But fuck that. Yes, fuck that. I wanted her dead. Gone. Poof. Like her rag doll man.

"Zanokuhle..."
"Or you want me to die before you can take me seriously? Wow Bangizwe," I get up from the floor after a mini struggle and storm out of here. I needed air and a moment to think and collect the hints of that dream with my bare minimum skill.

Once in the backseat of the car, I ask Deliverance to drive me to my mother. I needed to be within her calm realm and feel her presence. I needed her. I wanted her to hold me and tell me it was all going to be okay. I needed her to reassure me of the decisions I'm taking right now. But she's not here...and I'm never going to experience her warmth ever again.

I kneel down on her stone and just let it all out. This time it was far from it being hormones. I cried till I couldn't cry anymore just thinking of all the pain and suffering I had endured because of this marriage. Every bit of it was haunting me, cracking me till I felt like maybe I have nothing left.

My intrusive thoughts had me thinking as far as leaving it all together and go start somewhere afresh with my siblings and babies...

"But that would rather be stupid," his voice brings me out of it and I quickly look up at him with confusion. Why is he here at my peace?
What more does he have to say that he didn't back at home?

"You have seen her haven't you?" he asks. I say nothing, but keep looking him right in his grey eyes.
A cold breeze blows past me, and I only notice then that I haven't felt the presence of the woman I came here to feel. I haven't felt what I needed to feel. "Anger doesn't suit you, Wezanokuhle."

I chuckle bitterly before running my tongue across my top teeth. He has no right telling me and my feelings what they should and shouldn't feel.

Besides, is he expecting me to be all jolly for being tormented by tokoloshes and zombies? I think the hell not.

"Your mind is busy today."
"Mehlo, please! I didn't come here for your dumb riddles or anything along those lines. I came here for..."

Damn.

I-

A sharp pain attacks my abdomen. Panic sets in, and I'm unable to utter anything for a good couple of seconds. What is going on? Not my baby... No! I take in a breath and look up at this man who does nothing but stare at me.

Oh God... I can't be losing this baby over something I could've prevented.

Am I bleeding?

Why the hell is he just looking at me!