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Chapter Thirty Nine.

Chapter Thirty Nine.

"I drink the honey in your hive...you are the reason I stay alive."

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'Get your sister away from my man before we have problems. I wont hesitate beating her to a pulp again.'

That's the text I woke up to from Khethiwe. I didn't know what to think apart from the fact that all my thoughts all along were wrong and Zonke is really stupid for going back to that wing. How she chose to risk her life like that just proves to me that I should never ever interfere and intervene in anything she does because there's nothing I can say or do that will change her ways. Even Khethiwe seems to have failed in any case.

The past day has really been...I don't know. Chaotic maybe? For some parts yes.

After Bangi did a number on his brother we indeed went back to our place. Or rather I was dragged back here, willingly too if that made sense. In the moment I felt nothing for Alakhe. Not even for a second because it was all his fault.

"I should've killed him! Why did they stop me!"

Thank Goodness he wasn't touched or anything but that was only on the surface. I knew what Alakhe said back there was still ringing in his head. I for one didn't like how it made me think of Bangi's ex's. I know I was being irrational because I also have ex's, but damn.

Anyway, he eventually calmed down and regretted his 'setback'. He hated -as he said- "...falling back to what I never thought I'd do again"
"It wasn't your fault. Alakhe got what he wanted. He provoked you."
"That doesn't excuse my reaction. I had the choice to walk out."

That he did. But where was the satisfaction in that? Where was the clear message that needed to be portrayed to him. Like I said, I felt nothing for what happened to Alakhe.

That same night Bangi and I talked. He told me of how insecure this used to make him feel about himself the first time it happened. The times his exes broke his heart. He used to doubt his abilities as a man before he realised the problem would perish the moment he was alone.

"I used to think something was wrong with me..."

Whoever told Alakhe whatever idiotic thing he said today must've been hurt by my man deciding to wait.

For me...

I'm blushing at the thought.

Yes, I listened to him talking about his exes and how he'd try to bang them and just wouldn't be 'in the mood'. Yes I hated every moment of thinking of my man trying to sleep with another woman. Eww.

"I can't believe that shithead slept with the women I was in a relationship with. And now he's after you."
"He's not getting me. Never."

So yes...the following morning was a day filled with back and forths between him, his father and beaten brother who looked swollen. Probably just as bad as Zonke was a few months ago. They wanted Bangi to apologize which I found absurd.