Twilight Reimagined Fanfiction

In to deep

Chapter 3 In to deep

In to deep

Out of sight 

Out of mind.

In too deep

Come out blind.

Reach for the darkness 

See what you find.

Follow the light

Leave it all behind.

-Unknown 

( You pov )

I entered the garage through the side door. Renesmee sat at a table set up off to the side. Jake looked confused as he tried to read one of her books. As for Rose I couldn't help but stare. Rose didn't use a jack no she held it up herself. The smell of blueberries and chocolate hit my nose drawing my attention. My stomach growled loudly making me blush softly. There was a basket of muffins on the table in front of Renesmee. A small card sat against it bearing my name. For some reason everything felt like I had seen this already. I set my heavy bag down before looking at the small card. As I expected it only had my name on the front but the letters Ed on the back on the far side a Y. To others it wouldn't be much of an apology. Yet to me it was touching. Blinking away tears, I try to swallow the lump in my throat. Renesmee touched my hand showing me my own face. "I'm okay sweet girl," my voice was thick with emotion. Jake looked at me nervously. I sat down and pulled out my books before taking a muffin offering some to them. Renesmee grabbed a chocolate one tho she only picked at it. Jacob on the other hand looked greatful and downed one seemingly in one bite. Being polite I didnt eat till my break.

Even when I was around the others some nagging pain continued to stab at me. I never let it interfere with my job. Renesmee was the only one who could pull my head enough out of the water. Slowly but surely they seemed to trust me. The first one to leave the room had been Jacob. However Rose seemed to still be debating. Every day for a week both of them would be there but Jacob would leave, clearly feeling lost. Each day of that week I'd find a peace offering from Edward at the table. Even tho it was for me I still shared it with Jacob and Nessie. It didn't bother me that Nessie didn't care too much for food. I already knew she preferred blood. A card was also left behind each time. I secretly saved each one though it was almost the same thing. My name , his Ed and one letter. Today's letter was M on the far side. Movement caught my attention out of the corner of my eye. Esme waved for me to follow her. I let Renesmee know I would be right back. She seemed to be growing up right before me from the first day we met. "I got your email," she explained ," I just need to know how long you'd be gone." " That's the thing I don't know how long," I admitted shyly ," hopefully it won't take me more than a week." 

( Edward pov )

Staying away from her was agony , even just rooms away. The others knew what I was doing when I got there early each day. Listening to what I could of her mind to get some outlook on her mind. Yet as I listen for anything now I heard Esme mention (Y/n) had to leave. Her walls seemed to slip for the littlest moment tho it was too fast for me at her response. " That's the thing I don't know how long," she admitted shyly ," hopefully it won't take me more than a week." A week without even her thoughts had the darkness creeping in. My despair must have alerted Jasper because soon a calming serenity waved over me. "When must you go," I heard Esme ask greatful that she knew I needed the answer. "Tomorrow after my shift," (Y/n) sounded sad to go. Yet another wave of despair crashed over me strong enough for my head to go under the water. An even stronger sense of peace and serenity seemed to corner me in lifting me above the waves enough for me to pull it together. Using it to pull myself into checkmate. Now wasn't the time to lose it. I had a promise, my family and my daughter to take care of. If I was going to step into tutoring her till (Y/n) got back I needed to order some books. At least it would get my mind off of things for a bit. Maybe I could apologize to her before she leaves tomorrow. 

( You pov )

I ended up falling asleep on the big bean bag holding Renesmee who had also fallen asleep in the middle of reading. Something woke me but I didn't know what. Renesmee jumped with me when I woke with a start. My brain scattered for a moment before I sooth her back to sleep. Carefully I slip out of her arms. " She seems very attached to you," a smooth voice said behind me. I jump seeing Carlisle. "I didn't mean to startle you," he apologized. "I am sorry ," I blush softly, " we just kind of fell asleep-" "It's not a problem, " he assured me. Carlisle seemed like he wanted to say something. "What's going on,"I asked softly," are you letting me go?" " No," Carlisle eyes flash to Renesmee then back to me ," but I do have something to ask of you." I nod waiting for him to ask. "Edward would like to talk to you alone," he looked confident," he promised he won't harm you." "So it's up to me if I want to talk to him," I couldn't help but smile. "Yes," he nods ," if you want I can stay nearby in case." "No it's okay," I assured him ," I trust him." Carlisle gestured to the door I normally took to get in. I head outside closing the door behind me. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry," Edward stood just one step away. I hadn't realized I had been so close. Looking up into his face ,dumb struck. "I forgive you," I breathe. Something like possession crossed his face even when he brushed my hair behind my ear gently. Unable to help myself I lean into his hand. Lips crashed down to mine not enough to hurt but enough I knew my lips would be slightly swollen. Just slightly rough enough that my legs felt like jelly. He seemed to read that and pick me up. My legs wrapped around him while he pressed me into the wall. He kissed me like it was the last thing he'd ever do. Edward growled low in his throat as I kissed back just as roughly. I let out my own throaty little groan when I felt him harden against me. It was enough to snap me out of it but also had me aching with desire. I broke the kiss only for his lips to trail down taking in the scent of my arousal. "Wait," I whimper my plea as thin as my control. He continued as he fondled my ass. "I'm not her," I barely got out. He froze becoming a statue. I knew it would work, but damn I didn't expect the slash to my heart. Slowly he set me on my feet. "I'm so sorry," he sounded as breathless as I felt. The next thing I knew I was alone, my body still humming from what the hell that was. Touching my slightly swollen lips I head inside in a bit of a daze. I made up my mind even at the expense of my life.