Playing God (Sukuna x Reader)

Chapter 29

She did not remember anything about the contract. No matter how hard she tried to look through all her memories, nothing came up. She painted a look of confusion on her face, she was unable to provide Sukuna with a reply. This was quite big to take in for her. Y/N looked at Sukuna once more to see if she had heard him correctly, and he nodded. Y/N held her head, she could not imagine herself doing something like this, she was not even capable of doing something like this anyway. How was she able to make a contract with him if she did not have the ability to do so? It was impossible. Maybe she was the wrong person. But that was unlikely, she had witnessed their bond with her own eyes, she was truly connected to him. Y/N took her hand off her head and looked at it. For years, she has not had anything unusual happen to her, she only just lived a normal life of a village woman. Even when Sukuna came into her life, nothing strange happened to her physically or mentally, she was always the same weak-lived woman throughout her lifetime.

Sukuna stood up and carried her to their room. Y/N made no excuses and let him, she was not able to get up anyways. Once they had arrived onto their bed, they stayed in a silent state. Y/N turned over with her back facing Sukuna in deep thought. No matter how hard she tried to understand the situation, she still could not grasp it. Y/N has ultimately found his weakness. She was his weakness from the very beginning. Y/N questioned herself, when did she form a connection with him? Never in her lifetime did she know the answer to that. She never met Sukuna prior to now, at least that was what she remembered. She did not know whether she had always been connected to him, or did it start after he was with him. Nothing added up. She really did not know. But she wanted to know the answer, she needed to know. When they find the answer, would Sukuna try to break their bond? If so, what would happen to them? Something clicked in Y/N's head. Behind the reasoning on why she was standing here alive with him was because of the bond. Sukuna could not kill her. He needed her close to him or else the King would have fallen off his throne.

Y/N was being used. She felt numb, she did not want to think this way, but this was the most logical conclusion she was going to have. She was kept around for his sake, not hers. "I can feel your mood drop. Stop that. Whatever you're thinking about is probably wrong." Sukuna sighed out. Y/N turned over to face him with a pained expression. "Did you keep me around because I was your weakness? That I may be the cause of your demise? Is that the reason that I still stand here now?" Y/N's feelings were messed up, and she became emotional quickly. She truly did not want it to be true, but she knew she was right, that she was just a tool. "Don't make that face. It makes me feel weird." Sukuna's hand was placed onto her cheek in a reassuring comfort. Y/N placed her hand on top of his and squeezed it, she wanted to get her answer. "You're really stubborn, you know that? But yes. That was my initial plan. I intended to keep you until you had no more use for me." Sukuna truthfully stated.

It was nice to have a closure for this question, but what really bugged her was his 'initial plan'. If that was his original plan, then what was he thinking now? "What do you mean by 'initial'? Aren't you still using me?" Sukuna shook her head. "Things have changed now. You are worth so much more." Sukuna pulled her in and took in her scent. He admitted that he felt something for her. His statement made Y/N feel so much better, she felt like she was over the moon. She changed him in a way that most people would not have done. Y/N could feel her heart flutter. She felt something for him too, but were they on the same level. Does Sukuna feel something deep within their relationship? Even if he did not, it was alright for her. She was just content about his answer, that he does have the ability to feel. The most powerful curse of all is capable of these kinds of feelings. She thanked the heavens above.

Her heart pounded in her chest. The feeling was exotic, she has never felt like this towards another being. He was the first. Sukuna was her first for everything. "Sukuna?" Y/N called out his name and Sukuna hummed in response. "Are you curious about us?" "What kind of question is that, Doll? Of course I am. I want to know everything, especially about you." Sukuna squeezed her harder, she loved his feeling of protection, it was something that she had never received from anyone before. She understood what Sukuna meant. Who wouldn't be curious about their past, if they even had one in the first place. But Sukuna seemed to know more than what she did, even though she was the main cause for all this. She wanted him to share everything, and maybe the deepest parts of her mind could be unlocked.