TMNT One Shots

Safe With Me

I decided to make a short part two to "I Need You" where Mikey can't sleep due to a thunder storm

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Mikey's POV

I've never liked thunderstorms. Especially when everyone else was asleep, leaving me to face the long and sleepless night alone.

When I was a kid it was easier. It was understandable for a 3 or 5, or even a 7 year old to seek comfort from their brothers or Father. It was forgivable to wake them from their slumber in tears to ask asking to be protected.

But a 15 year old wanting that? That was out of the question.

I guess you could argue that I had a good enough reason to be scared of thunderstorms now. After what happened that night anyway. Raph and I could of died because of that storm. Anyone would understand someone being scared of storms after going through something like that.
I was more scared of storms now more than ever.

Every boom, every gust of roaring wind, even the sound of heavy raindrops dropping like bullets was all a horrible reminder of the hell we went through. Despite all this though, I still couldn't bring myself to wake anyone up because their crybaby of a brother needed protection from something that couldn't even harm him from the safety of our underground lair.

I can't stop crying. My body won't stop shaking. I can't breath. I hate this. I hate all of this. I hate myself for being so pathetic.

Thunder booms above me again and I duck even further under the sheets.

"Pathetic!" my inner voice yelled at me.

More thunder. And suddenly I'm brought back to the treehouse. I remember it falling. I remember sinking Into the water and reaching the surface only to be dragged under again before I could catch my breath. I remember the look on Raphs face after he found me clinging to a rock, how he saved me from that tree branch, how much he had to suffer bringing me back home because I was too weak to walk.

"It's all your fault"

No.

"He suffered because of you!"

Stop it.

"He could have died because of you!"

"Shut up!" I cried out. I really hated my head sometimes.

"You know what you have to do"

I flinch as more thunder builds up. I sit up in bed and reach over to my night stand with shaky hands. I slide the drawer open and take out my pocket knife. I take a few deep breaths and put the blade to my skin. I know it was stupid. But I diserved it. I'm pathetic. Besides, it was the only way I knew how to calm myself.

Raphs POV

I wake up startled from the thunder after dreaming about that night. I sit up and work on catching my breath.
I look down at the boot around my leg and my head floods back to those moments of terror. I thought about how weak Mikey looked after I pulled him out of the water. I remembered feeling him go limp in my arms.

"Oh Mikey..." I whispered to myself. I could only imagine the hell his head put him through after all that. I should go check on him...

I get out of bed and walk out into the hallway. The boot on my leg echoes with each step and I hoped that it didn't wake anyone. As I get closer to Mikeys room I hear crying. My heart sinks and I walk a little faster.

"Mikey?" I say as I open his door. I gasp at the sight before me. Mikey was holding his pocket knife up to his arm about to push it through his skin as tears streamed down his face. His eyes widened when he saw me. "Mikey, don't!"

He dropped the knife and broke out into sobs. "I'm sorry" he cried. He burried his face in his hands. I walked over to him and pulled him into a hug.

"Shh, it's okay Mikey" I whispered. "I'm here". I sat down next to him on the bed still holding him in my arms. "Mikey, why would you wanna hurt yourself?" Mikey sniffled and shook his head. "Please talk to me baby bro. I wanna help" I spoke softly.

He took a shaky breath, letting it out slowly. "I...I thought I disereved it...after what I put you through...You could have died Raph...You got hurt all because of me and...This was the only way I knew how to calm down".

Thunder crashes once more. Mikey jumps and I hold him tighter. "Please don't hurt yourself Mikey. It wasn't your fault. What happened that night was nothing more than a freak accident. I'm more than happy I was able to save you. I don't know what I'd do if I lost you baby bro. I love you so much... Even if I get mad, I still love you".

Mikey nodded. "I love you too Raphie... Thank you. I feel a little better..." He looked up at me and smiled a little. I smiled back. "Raphie? Can you stay with me tonight?"

"Of course Mikey" I said hugging him again. I lay us down and cover us up under the blankets. Everytime the thunder or wind scared Mikey I'd hold him close and remind him that he was safe. Eventually he fell into a deep sleep. I smiled and kissed the top of his head. "Good night baby bro" I whispered. Soon enough, I too fell asleep feeling safe next to Mikey.