TMNT One Shots

We'll get through this

Requested by AlphaBootyshaker9000
Love the username btw XD

TW: mentions of Self harm and depression

Donnie POV

My brothers and I have combatted many foes. We've defeated several, multiple times in fact. No one has brought us down yet.

Some evil, however, you can't beat. Not when it comes to your own mind that is. Depression has showed it's ugly face to me and hasn't gone away. I've lived with it since I was young, and some days were better than others. I've been having a lot of bad days lately. I just can't seem to pull myself out of this nightmare. Less and less things make me happy. Not even working on my gadgets create a spark.

Because of all this, I've unfortunately fallen back into old habits...

Habits I thought I had let go of. But alas, I am once again staring into the color red that keeps spilling out of me. New scars have stained my arms. I didn't want to do this again. I just wanted to feel something. Anything. I'm tired of feeling numb. I'm...so tired.

I start to shake as I look at the blade sitting in my hand. Hot tears spill out of me as I break down into sobs. It's not enough. I needed more.
Just as I bring the blade back up to my arm I hear my bedroom door open from behind me. My eyes widened and I freeze in place.

"Donnie?" Leo said walking into the room. "Why are you on the floor?". I keep my arms close to my chest and hide the blade in my closed hand. I keep my eyes to the floor as he walks around me and stands in front of me. He notices my tears and grows concern. "Donnie, what's wrong?" He kneels down in front of me.

"I'm fine" I mumbled.

"You're a terrible liar" Leo replied.

Of course it wasn't long before he found out. A second later he saw the blood. It was dripping down my arms and staining my chest. How could he not see it?

"Oh my god, Donnie what happened?!" He shouted.

"Nothing!" I shouted back.

"Donnie, you're bleeding! Let me see!" He placed his hands on my arms and I pulled away.

"I said I'm fine" I whispered this time. I knew it was too late. By now all of the commotion had alerted the others. And sure enough Mikey and Raph were running in as well.

"What's going on?" Raphael asked us. "I heard Donnie was bleeding? What happened?"

"He won't tell me" Leo said worried.

I let out a heavy sigh. "I just want to be alone..."

"Not until we know you're okay" Leo argued.

"I'm not okay!" I snapped. It even caught me off guard. It was as if something within me had had enough of me trying to deny it.

"Donnie" Mikey said appearing in front of me. "Whatever you're going through right now, we're here for you, okay? We love you, very much".

I broke down crying all over again. "I'm sorry" I whispered. "I'm so sorry". I pulled my arms away from my chest and open my hand, finally revealing what I have done. I heard them all gasp. Raph drops to his knees and hugs me from behind.

"I'm sorry Donnie" he whispers.

"Mikey" Leo says. "Can you fetch the first aid kit?"

Mikey nods and takes off faster than the wind. Leo gently placed his hand on mine, taking away the blade. He puts it aside for now to throw away later and holds both my hands in his own as I cry.

"This does not define you, Donnie" he says to me. "You are far more than your struggles".

"It's just been...so hard lately" I said in between sobs. "N-nothing makes me happy anymore". Raph hugs me tighter.

Leo rests his forehead against mine. "We'll get through this. You won't feel this way forever".

Mikey comes back into the room with the first aid kit, along with a wet washcloth. Leo thanks him and holds his hand out for me. I rest my arm in his hand and he gently cleans the cuts. After both arms are cleaned he wraps them up in bandages. All of my brothers hug me afterwards. I smile through my tears and nuzzle into them. I don't alway like hugs. But this was nice.

"Thank you guys" I whispered. "Thank you so much".