Diamond in the Making

40. Knight Skies

Running away is something that I am used to. I ran away from the town my parents raised me in. I ran away from the wolves and Daphne. And now I'm running away from everything I have or had.

My mind ran wild as I drove to the airport and I feverishly wiped stray tears from my cheeks. The store will last without me for at least two months. After two months Nate will move on, Daphne will forget about me. Two months but where would I go? I have nowhere to go.

What the fuck am I thinking? I can't run, what's left in New York is all I have.

I battled with myself as I walked through the parking lot and towards the entrance. The signs hanging showed me all the flights. Dozens of places all over but none of them seemed right. My eyes glanced over the flight to Los Angeles and I shook my head.

Looking at my phone I was reminded of Nate again. Multiple missed calls, voicemails and text messages. I just couldn't stand to acknowledge them. Sifting through the notifications, I saw a message from Todd saying that the papers have gone through. That's one relief but I couldn't care less about that right now.

I sat down on a bench near the doors questioning myself. What am I doing? I don't have anything with me. I've never been the spontaneous type before and I don't think now is the time to change.

Am I really gonna do this? Say goodbye to all that's familiar for me for two whole months? Run away from the only true love I've felt in years?

I nervously fiddled with my bracelets as I watched the flights change on the board. I was hoping a place would catch my eye. I wanted some kind of reassuring feeling to come to me so I'd know I'm doing the right thing but I felt nothing.

The noises around me were muted by my undying thoughts. I sat waiting for this unknown feeling to come.

"Zara," I looked up to see Theo out of breath from running.

He's here because Nate sent him, there's no doubt about that. It's not like he genuinely cared.

"Fuck off Theo," I said angerly. He was taken back by my response.

I thought he was my friend but he had no problem joining in on the lie with Nate. Not that I expected him to betray his own brother, I just expected him to be more empathetic towards the situation. He should have convinced Nate that life's too short to live lies.

"Come on, let's go home," he said somewhat hesitantly, as if he was scared of my reaction. "Nate's on his way back. He'll explain when he gets here."

"Are you delusional?" I asked seriously.

Right now I don't want an explanation. I got enough information from Nate which is the reason that I am mad. He lied for months. Was he ever going to tell me? I'm not thinking rationally. I'm associating Nate with negative thoughts and there's no forgiveness with negativity. I can't judge anything properly. I just need to be alone. For how long? I don't know but two months seems reasonable.

"Just leave me alone," I said coldly as I brushed past Theo and headed for my car.

Nowhere seems like the right place to go. So I'll just drive until I run out of gas. That's responsible right?

Theo followed me outside and I saw two Escalades waiting, making me instantly roll my eyes.

"Zara, can we just talk? I want to make sure you're okay," Theo said lovingly as we approached my car.

"Now you care?" I questioned sourly turning around to face him. "Sorry Theo but you're too late," I said as I got into my car.

He begged and called my name but I left him there and drove wherever the road took me. It didn't matter if there was anyone tailing me because I felt like I was in my own world.