{WANRING: mentioning from abuse!}
{ jk POV }
My body froze at her words. My eyes went wide as i gulped.
"No, no please don't leave me" i spoke "i love you so much-"
"THE SHOW ME LOVE!" She yelled and cried out at the same time "I'M COVERED IN SCARS BECAUSE OF YOU!" She yelled
Eying her body i gulped. I never paid attention to it. And just now i saw what i did to her.
The old scars and fresh cuts covering her entire body. My eyes welling up with tears.
"Princess...i am so sorry" I whispered out as a tear ran down my cheek.
"Look for help jungkook. I'll come back to you when I'm sure you're healed" she spoke and left out of my sight
I fell through my legs down on the floor. Tears streaming down my cheeks.
I can't loose her. I fought hard to get, I'll fight as well to keep her.
-
It was a week later, most of her stuff was gone as she moved away somewhere else.
I would check up on her via text but she kept the conversations short. She also didn't want me to know where she lived.
She was scared, and I don't blame her. All the traumatising things that happened in my life caused me to think differently.
Seeing my dad abuse my mother, my brother crying all day long and fighting with my parents.
Teachers yelling at students and i could keep on going.
On day i found a dude who made me live with him when i ran away from home. He made me grow up with him and made me do things.
And only just now, i know he taught me the wrong things. He taught me how to hurt people.
But i should have learned how to love them.
-
"So, mr. Jeon. Ready for our second talk?" My psychologist asked.
"Guess so" i sigh.
"So last time we talked about what happened. And what you wanted to change. But are you ready to take actions?" She asked
"Yes, i have to. I need my girlfriend back. And I'm ready to do anything" i spat out. "I just don't know where to start. How do you love someone"
"I guess you once told her 'i love you'?" She asked
"I never did, until the day she said she would leave"
"Did you mean those words?"
"I guess i did? I don't know. I don't know what love is and how it feels like" i spoke
"When you're with her, how do you feel"
"Safe" I whispered "even when i had hurt her, she would take care of me. Made sure i had everything. She made me feel like I wasn't alone"
"Keep going"
"I drink a lot, but when I don't and I'm with her, i feel so calm. Relaxed. Like i have no worries."
"Can your drinking be the problem?"
"Can it?" I asked back
"Some people get aggressive from alcohol. And especially from a big amount. Maybe you should try and stop drinking"
"I'll give it a try" i mumbled
-
{ your POV }
I got home and suddenly saw one of Jungkook's friends at my door.
"Namjoon?" I frown "how did you know i was here"
"Doesn't matter, we have to talk" he spoke. I gulped and nodded letting him in. We sat down as he cleared his throat
"I had to give this from jungkook" he handed me a letter. "He's trying his best to change for you. We barely see him anymore and when we do he is focused on you. Don't give up on him" he spoke and left.
I gulped and looked at the door that closed. Looking back at the letter I gulped and opened it.
Dear angel
When i saw your body i was shocked at myself. I never noticed what I actually did to you.
And after hearing your words, as you where ready to leave me. I knew i had to take actions.
I did so much to get you, and without noticing i gave up on you. And I realised i would make the biggest mistake to let you go.
I've been going to a psychologist, and she's been giving me good advice. I stopped drinking and smoking.
And I stopped going out to clubs and casino's. I quickly got to realise what you actually did to me and for me.
After my childhood, and learning from a friend in the wrong way. I thought i was doing right.
But I didn't. I never felt this guilty in my life. And I'm ready to fix everything i did. I know that the scars on your body won't disappear.
But I'll try to heal them by making you happy and making you feel loved.
Angel, I'll do anything for you. Even if i had to give up my own life. Please give me a chance to proof myself.
Please let me into your heart again and let me heal it.
Meet me next Saturday at 6:30 pm at the rose park. If I don't see you i know you don't want this anymore.
But i hope and pray to see you.
Please let me love you angel.
I love you.
Jungkook ♡
'Fuck! What do i do now?!'
