{ jk POV }
Rain rolling down the window I was lost in thoughts. The words from san kept replaying in my head. Only causing me to think more and more.
Maybe I've been to hard on myself? Maybe I've just been overreacting? I don't know. Would strangers treat me the way the guys do? I guess not... how bad I wished I grew up in a family who taught me love. And not how to fight.
Been killing for years. Why does guilt enter my body just now? Because I let someone kill my father? Because the truth came out? Because I'm finally thinking?
I wasn't prepared for a life like this.
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"Where are you going to?" Namjoon walked down the stairs. Putting on my jacket I pushed my hands into my pockets.
"a walk. Probably going to visit an old friend of mine." I nodded
"friend?" he frown "Jungkook why don't you talk to us?" he tilted his head
"I'm reflecting myself hyung. Please give me some time" I spoke quietly before leaving out the door.
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{your POV}
Leaning against the wall I stared at Namjoon. Seeing him sigh I leaned my head against the wall.
"I'm sure he's letting reality to him right now" I spoke causing Namjoon to turn to me.
"we need a talk" he spoke shortly and walked to the garden. Following him I took a seat next to him. "you seem close with him. How come?"
"the tattoo" I mumbled "he kept confusing me, I wanted answers. And he would gave me those after he could tattoo me. I still think something is off tho."
"what do you mean?" he frowns
"I have a feeling he used me. To not have the guilt on him for killing his own father" I shrugged "I don't know what to think anymore"
"jungkook is a good guy...I just think he never got a proper chance to figure himself out" Namjoon nodded "you know jin-a. you're not bad either." As I looked at him
"huh?" I frown
"you walking around here all the time, you helped jugnkook. We helped you. I don't know. For some reason you seem to be like one of us" he glanced at me
"I want to leave soon tho" I mumbled "I don't want my brother to live this way." I nodded at my own words
"jin-a?" Namjoon whispered as hummed "I think jugkook needs you"
"what do you mean" I questioned
"he has told you a lot already. He already showed you a lot too. He even pulled you into his side gang. Me and the guys barely even know what his side gang does. I feel like even tho he shows attitude to you, he needs you"
"I don't know what to say onto that" I mumbled
"please stay a bit longer. I know I promised you could leave once we were done with everything. But please try to help out Jungkook. Help my friend out" as he seemed to be begging me.
"I'll think about it" I nodded "now excuse me" as I left inside.
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"Jungkook?" I knocked onto his door. Hearing a hum I entered, closing the door behind me. Seeing his broad figure sitting at his desk, his eyes fixated on the window. "can we talk?" I asked
"what do you want" he spoke coldly
"I can't stay in your side gang" I spoke, only for him to sigh
"you can't leave it anymore"
"why did you tattoo me Jungkook" I frown as he turned to me.
"to be sure you couldn't leave" he spoke
"there's nothing for me to do Jungkook, I have no hate toward anyone. Tell me why you making me stay" he sighs and got up. He walked close to me and locked eyes
"I wish I had the balls to give you a honest answer jin-a" he whispered "but I don't have them." He nodded "I've been reflecting myself jin-a. I'll try to change, maybe after a while I'll be able to be honest"
"I'm leaving soon Jungkook. I've done what you guys told me to. I want go give my brother a better life." I nodded "whatever your reason is, I will never be able to forgive you for pulling me into such a big mess" I whispered. "have a goodnight jugnkook" I spoke and left his room
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{jk POV}
Staring at my door, I closed my eyes. Cursing at myself before leaving my room. Seeing jin-a walking down I followed her. Grabbing her writs once we got downstair I made her look at me. Seeing a frown appear on her face
"don't leave" I whispered "you can't leave yet" I shook my head
"jugnkook-"
"please" I begged. As I never broke our eye contact
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{flashback jk's walk}
"so, did you figure something out already?" san spoke as we walked around the park.
"what does love feel like?" I ignored his question.
"why you asking" he asked
"just answer" I sigh as he nodded
"It's a difficult question though. Love is different for every person. I think you should just reflect on how you feel. Imagine the person you think you love will leave. And you probably will never see them again. You will feel upset. Maybe even alone? I think if you're in love you just want to be around that person. Show them your feelings even though you're scared."
"san..." I mumbled
"yes?"
"I think I'm in love"
{Jungkook will start opening up. Let's see soon where this will go. What do you guys think will happen?}
