✓ | The Power of Mind [Season One]

T1 • Chapter 8: The Reenactment Gone Wrong

June 22, 2021, Tuesday

This is unbelievable!

What did I ever do to deserve this kind of treatment- no , what did I ever do why he can't approve of me joining his crusade? He is despicable! No one should defy the great Mishanielle Mionette Marvel, the greatest plunderer of the current generation! No one, no one except this one man who left me alone in the Main Cafeteria after he said my downfall.

Iniwan niya ako pagkatapos niyang sabihin ang salitang 'No' ng may kabagalan at diin. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit hindi. He didn't even explain why, he just left with a grin on his face and I really wish to wipe that off. Naiinis ako, at hindi ako mapakali. I didn't see him after that, and I've looked for him everywhere for reconsideration, but he is damn hard to find. Hindi ko rin mahagilap ang mga kasama niya, at hindi rin naman pwede na lumabas ako ng eskwelahan para sana pumunta sa Cafè dahil kasalukuyan ginaganap pa ang morning class.

I was left wondering until Isabel found me. Until now, I am still in my own thoughts trying to figure out how to get his approval. Nasa first floor kami ng STEM A building, and I can clearly hear Isabel's thoughts. She's been staring at me for a while and she is waiting for me to spill the beans, but I am not in the mood for her assumptions. Does being in contact with Noesis give everyone tons of gossip?

Kanina ko pa naririnig ang mga iniisip nila tungkol sa nangyari kanina, and I really swear they are all feeble minded. Hindi nakakatulong ang mga naririnig ko. Mas sumasakit lang ang ulo ko rito.

If he could just explain why, maybe I will understand- or not. Maybe because he knew my reason was. Napaisip naman ako. If he knew my motive maybe that's the reason why he kept on saying I am not qualified. But as he said, he can't access my mind fully and I haven't been thinking about it until now. It could be. But, I think that is not enough reason for me to be neglected. I have done this once, I just need to try harder. Nakakuha nga ako ng 'oo' sa tatay ko, hindi pwedeng paspecial ang lalaking ito.

"I don't know what it is you're thinking, but it feels like you are about to murder someone," Isabel said while holding her chin and still staring at me. Her thoughts are even nastier than the rest of the people here. She even thought I was bewitched. Hindi ko siya pinansin. We are waiting for the rest of the squad to join the group gathering. I did say no, but she was much quicker and pulled me to join.

It is helpful if I will plunder her, but I do not want some unwanted thoughts from her head. Masakit ang ulo ko sa mga iniisip ko, at ayoko naman na may dumagdag pa. "Misha. I know you are not an open book, but at least naman sa akin lang magsalita ka, kahit konti lang."

That made me sigh.

"Kulang lang ako sa tulog kaya lutang ako." Half lie, half-truth. If I will explain she will never understand. She hates Kenzo also, and that makes it even harder to explain. Umiba na nga ang mukha nilang dalawa ng sinabi kong sasali ako sa Noesis, paano pa kaya kung sasabihin ko ulit?

"Kaya nga sabi ko sa'yo, do not get close to any member of the Noesis. Ayan ang napala mo." That is somehow the case. If I didn't pursue my involvement, I maybe had a nice comfortable sleep but, Raishin move first. I was planning to take it slow. The process shouldn't be this fast, but I do not have any more choice. If Raishin did not made that simulation, hindi sana masama pakiramdam ko ngayon. And I am also in confusion because of it. Ano ba kase ang dahilan kung bakit niya ginawa iyon.

"Alam mo. Umuwi ka nalang at magpahinga. Baka bukas makakalimutan na natin ang nangyari ngayon," she said in full delight, but I know she is currently thinking about what happened when Raishin pulled me out of her sight and found me alone afterwards. She has so many questions in her mind, and I do not know if I can answer them. I am relieved that she knew her place, she doesn't want to spoil the moment just because she is curious. I somehow realize that I've been pushing things harder and didn't even think to slow down. Kasalanan talaga ito ni Raishin!