A Job With Him

Lucky Angel

It has been a year since my debut and I had already gained so much popularity. I have also released my second album which sold a million albums, making me a "million seller"! Baekhyun congratulated me on my early success. I have done several fan signs and am even planning to perform overseas since I had many international fans as well.

Josh too had success with his newest album. He even went on a world tour to countries like France, America, Malaysia, Indonesia, Thailand, Japan, China, India and finally, Singapore. Although he is gone from home for days, maybe even weeks, we still facetime to catch up and make time for each other. Today, he was on his way back from India to rest and prepare before heading to his last stop, our home country.

I fetched my boyfriend from the airport and drove us back. He felt really exhausted from the flight and performances so he fell asleep on the ride home. Once we arrived, I shook him slightly to which his eyes fluttered open and he gave me a kiss.

Nothing much happened since Josh wanted to sleep and I didn't want to disturb him either. I felt bad but knew that at least he was happy doing what he loves. I sometimes wondered if I would be able to survive like him: performing, flying and repeat. However, Josh never failed to encourage me to keep going and not be scared of what was ahead.

Three days passed and Josh didn't really talk to me like he used to. He would wake up, eat, say that he needs to practise and lock himself in his workroom at home. I felt like he was avoiding me which broke my heart a little but I didn't want to talk about it with him as maybe he really was very busy. I practised for my own performances and tried to interact with Josh during meals. However, he always answered with "yes" or "no" and the conversation just ends up in silence. He also kept acting suspicious and wouldn't let me enter his workroom.

The next day, Josh did the same routine but worse. He didn't even come to sleep in our room. I tried knocking on his door to tell him to get some rest but he just told me that he would sleep there. I broke down in tears as I curled into a ball on our bed. I knew that he was busy, but this busy even for me?

I had enough of Josh's nonsense on the fifth day. He was going to fly to Singapore in two more days yet; he never spent any time with me. Call me selfish but this is just too far. When Josh came out to have breakfast, I decided to tell him how I felt. However, his reaction was far from what I expected.

"So? I'm busy. Can't you understand that?"

"Well, of course, I do understand but, you need to focus on other things too. I don't want you to wear yourself out from being stuck in that room all day. Plus, we didn't really spend any time together..."

"So you're saying I should focus on you? Amber, you know how important my career is to me."

"Yes, I know. But you were never like this before."

"So you expect me to stay the same for the rest of my life? Please Amber, people change. Accept that I have and move on!"

"Josh... is something wrong? You never yelled at me before..." I looked down and tears started flowing from my eyes.

Josh sighed and said, "Listen Amber, I would appreciate it if you don't disturb me from now on. I'm busy." My heart broke at his words.

"So now I'm just disturbing to you? I know that your career is important to you but isn't your girlfriend important too? I have never made you choose between your career and me because I know how much you love both. But that doesn't mean you can just throw me to one side then come and act all romantic according to when you feel it's convenient!" I couldn't control myself anymore and yelled the last line at him before running to our bedroom and locking the door. I then slid down onto the floor, hugging my knees to my chest and crying my heart out. How could the love of my life change this much?