A Job With Him

I've Missed You

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Wait, he is going to talk to me now and definitely about the incident. Joshua saw the change in my expression and knew what I was going to do. He grabbed my wrist before I could even escape and I sighed. He then spoke, "Seeing how you keep running away from me, you are the Amber from my junior college time right? The one whom I left to suffer alone again."

I stood there, silent. I wanted to apologize to him. I wanted to thank him for protecting me all the way. I wanted to feel his hugs and kisses again. But I just couldn't bring myself to do anything. My feet stayed rooted to the ground and I was frozen, like a statue. "I'm sorry", "Thank you", "I love you," were the only thoughts running through my head. I heard Joshua sigh and I looked up startled.

"I guess you either hate me or found out about what really happened..." he started. However, my mind was not processing anything. I just couldn't believe my first love was standing right before me again. All of a sudden, I became dizzy and just blacked out.

I woke up hearing Joshua speaking through the phone.

"Yes manager Hyung... I'm sorry I caused so much trouble... Yes, I'll take care of her, don't worry... Thank you," he then hung up and turned to see me awake. I held my head and sat up slowly as what happened last night came back to me. I was on a soft blue king-sized bed next to transparent doors which led to the balcony. Thin curtains blocked the sunlight and I looked around to see the rest of the place being really clean and spacious. Where am I?

Joshua saw how puzzled I looked and sat beside me at the edge of the bed. "You lost consciousness while I was speaking to you last night. I carried you back here, my penthouse. I also called in my personal doctor to check on you and he said that you fainted cause of exhaustion," he explained. I sighed and apologized for the inconvenience I had caused.

"Before we continue talking about the past, what happened to you? Why were you over-exhausted?" He asked, worry visible in his face. It felt like he was the Josh I knew 10 years ago.

Honestly, even I myself didn't know why I fainted from over-exhaustion. I mean, I did only sleep for 3 hours for the past few days because of job hunting. But that wasn't a big problem for me as I felt fine when doing things and never really felt tired. I guess I've been controlling it all this time and my body couldn't take it anymore.

"Umm... I guess... well..." I hesitated. How could I tell him that I stayed up searching for what to do with my life and was still jobless. I looked down and started playing with my fingers. But Josh suddenly placed his hand on them and stopped my movements.

"Why are you so nervous? You always play with your fingers when you are anxious. Is your answer too personal to talk about right now?" He asked in a gentle tone. He sounded so caring and loving, I just wanted to hug him and say "I stayed up all night thinking about you" but of course, I couldn't.

I sighed and told him the truth. "Sorry. It's just that... I've been staying awake the past few nights researching on jobs to apply for and I couldn't get anything. I also had a lot of events to attend to and a lot of studies to catch up on. So I wasn't able to sleep much."

"How come you're still studying?"

"Oh I just do it for fun. It keeps me busy from thinking about things I don't want to think about."

"Ahh I see." That was all he said. Shoot, is he disappointed that I don't have a job? Does he think I'm useless or a study-freak? Unknowingly, I felt a drop of water fall onto my hand. I was confused but when I touched my eyes, I realised that I was sniffling and crying. Joshua saw this and his eyes widened in shock.

"Amber, are you alright? Are you hurt anywhere? Why are you crying? Is something wrong?" He kept asking me and even checked my forehead and held my hands comfortingly. I couldn't control myself anymore. At the drop of a hat, I instinctively wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him tight. "I missed you. I missed you so so much. I'm so sorry for running away earlier. I'm so sorry for not loving you enough back then. I could never have loved you in the way you loved me. You protected me with all your heart and even ended our relationship just for my sake. I'm so sorry for avoiding you. I didn't mean to. I was just so happy that I could finally see you and didn't want to burst into tears like this in front of you."

Joshua was taken aback at first. But he then embraced me tightly as well and stroked my back slowly. It felt so heavenly and calming in his arms.

"I'm sorry I left without telling and cutting off contact with you. I should've at least left a note to explain what happened. I should've done better in saving our relationship. But I'm so happy that we have finally reunited Amber. Now, I'll never let you go."