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I've been feeling suicidal lately
Yet some people love to bully
And some are always ready to hate me
For reasons unknown to me

I don't know what to do
People do keep motivating me
But I'm broken beyond repair again and again not once
And now i no more am able to dream or hope like what i used to once

Happiness is no more there in my life
Which was used to be at least a little bit earlier
I'm all dead from inside
Why to exist when there's no interest in this life?
Why to exist in a lonely life with all my wishes unfulfilled?
Why to exist in a home where no one understands?
Why to exist in a world so cruel and painful for me?
Why to exist when love and bonds hurt more than it heal?
Why to exist when i can't do anything i want, I can't get anything i need?
Why to exist when all my faith has gone?
Why to exist with too much pain without a cure?
Why to exist in a polluted place where i can't get a fresh air?
Why to exist in a home out of which i cannot go?
Why to exist when everyone i trusted hurts me one by one in a row?
Why to exist when self love can't heal my wounds?
Why to exist when ranting is all i can do?
Why to exist when i Don't have any strength left?
Why to exist believing everything will be ok when nothing goes right?
Why to exist when i can't smile anymore?
Why to exist with so many mental and physical issues which doesn't heals?
Why to exist in a life where I can't walk like others?
Why to exist in a life where i can't have a single painless moment in a year?
Why to exist when i don't have a reason to suffer?
Why to exist with mere sympathies which can't change my life?
Why to exist when all the hardship and efforts made went to waste?
Why to exist when there's no one there to speak to and feel hurt hearing people talking about their amazing relatives and friends while i have none in reality?
Why to exist when i can't feel a thing anymore being numbed?
Why to exist with a dark past when i don't have enough happy memories to remember?
Why to exist with my whole childhood and teenage ruined by bullies, jerks, fake friends, illness and heartbreaks?
Why should i exist when i don't want to?
Why to exist when i can no more do anything after failing again and again to live?
Why to exist when there's only sorrow in reality?
Why to survive and exist when i can't live a life?
Why to survive and exist when there's nothing i want anymore from my life?
Why should i believe you when all i see is words and nothing true?

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