Gwynriel

Girls Night

No one can stop me, I am inevitable! 

Pop!

"Oh come on!" Emerie shouts, "I totally had that you cheat!" 

Nesta just falls back on the couch laughing with her melted marshmallow covered face. I keep going, I'm going to get this record!

Pop!

The grin that splits my face through the sticky gum is one of my proudest. 

"I, Gwyneth Berdara, am the bubble gum popping champion. This," I point to my face, "Is all the proof the world shall need to see my superiority."  

"Ya, ya, ya whatever!" The pout that has taken over Emerie's face is enough to cause both Nesta and I to crack up as we all fall onto the couch. 

"Where did you say Cass was again?" Nesta looks back to Emerie and informs her, again, that he's at the river house babysitting baby Nyx for the High Lord and Lady. Apparently alcohol consumption makes Emerie a forgetful Valkyrie. 

"Where do you think Az went off to?" I couldn't help asking. Ever since he just took off I couldn't keep my mind off him. Is he okay? Where'd he go? What if he needs help?

Both the girls look to me now that I've got their undivided attention apparently. That is until Nesta's serious face cracks and I see a grin start to form. "So many questions about the shadowsinger little missy, one might start to think someone's got a little crush!" 

"I called it! Shadow boy and book nerd! Oh look how red you are! Aw Gwyn Gwyn's in looovveee" 

"I think someone had a little too much wine" is all I can muster as a response. 

"Seriously Gwyn though, what's up with you and Azriel? He'll be okay this is his job. He comes and goes all the time. This is actually the most he's ever stayed put." Nesta asks and I find myself wanting to talk about this, but how much do I say? 

"I don't really know what's going on, I mean Az is Az, how could I not find him to be attractive? I just don't know what I want, what I'm ready for. He's older and experienced and he probably doesn't want anything to do with me like that. Especially" I cut myself off. I can't talk about Elain like this to Nesta, Emerie sure, that's not her blood sister, but Ness? 

"You have valid points Gwyn, and Azriel is a good male. If you were ever ready or wanted to try with him I'm sure he'd be honored. He'd know how precious of a gift that is with knowing what happened. But especially what? Did he do something?"

I try to keep my thought level to a minimum after the mention of that night. He did see, he saw everything. 

Breath Gwyn Breath, you are not there, you are in the house of wind with your sisters.

You are safe, you are safe, you are safe. 

I am the rock on which the surf crashes.

I take another breath. 

"I will kick his ass you know. If Ness and I team up we'll get him down, you can land the blow" I know Emerie is joking with that and it did make me smile. Maybe I can test the waters, see how she reacts to me talking about Elain. 

"It's just that I think there's something going on with him and Elain. I don't mean anything bad its just that, well, she's the most beautiful female I think I've ever seen and she's been nothing but kind to me. I don't want to step into the middle of whatever that is just for me to not know what I want from him." 

Nesta's face changed from concern to outrage and I cringe. I shouldn't have said anything. 

"First of all, never dictate your love life based off of what other people want. Secondly, what Elain is doing with Azriel is completely horrid. She might say she has feelings for him but all he is an escape from her mate. She doesn't want to be forced into loving someone and she thinks she can just use Azriel to block that out. It's not right. Don't make a decision about your life based off of Elain and her bullshit drama." Nesta is practically steaming, "You and Azriel would be good for each other, you need to heal and as much as he won't admit it, he needs to heal as well."

I definitely hit a nerve. 

"I had no idea she had a mate" came from Emerie. 

How could someone have a mate and not want them? Mates are so rare, this inner circle is lucking to have so many. I don't think I'll ever meet mine, if I even have one. Especially if I never leave the library. 

"She's a complicated mess right now, I went through something similar with the whole 'mate' thing but there's more too it for her."

"I hope she's okay, and that she goes to whoever her mate is. I would do anything to have a mate" Ness just looks at me with sympathy and gives me a hug. I guess the house wants in too because the next thing we know we have nice, warmed, blankets wrapped around us and more hot chocolate on the table next to us. 

"Hey I want in!" Emerie is quick to join our hug and before I know it she rips the blankets off.

"Hey!" Ness wines, "I was using those!" She just sticks her tongue out.

"These would be perfect for a fort" Those are all the words needed before the three us jump to work. 

The House provides more blankets and some ledges on the walls to put the blankets on. We manage to have a pretty good set up as we crawl in our masterpiece. Our backs are to the couch back and we have pillows all over the floor as well as candles to see by. We grab our books and before we know it we're all falling asleep on the floor together, like true sisters. The last thought that runs through my mind is what a great girls night we had together before a pair of scared wings takes me to my dreams.