Matthew Espinosa Imagines

"You Can't Save Me"

*Hannah's POV*

I get dressed for another Monday of hell, dressing in a black crop top tee and white washed high waisted shorts.

I tie my high top converse tight around my small feet and then do my makeup and hair, and all hygienic things.

I put my hair in a messy side braid and my makeup consisted of pumped up length mascara and dark brown eye shadow, along with some EOS chapstick.

I then stare at myself in the mirror, and sigh. All I saw was my anorexic stomach and the bags under my eyes from crying throughout the night.

I don't blame people for thinking I'm an attention whore, when honestly people clearly notice my depression but just choose not to bring it up. I don't want attention, I just want happiness.

I walk down the stairs quietly while my parents still snoozed soundless. I climb into my black Toyota and turn the keys to start the ignition.

I pull out of my house's driveway and then speed away to the supposedly "safe" and "four star" Woodbridge High School.

I play the song "Sweater Weather" on my way to school, it being my favorite song.

"All I am, is a man. I want the world, in my hands. I hate the beach, but I stand, in California with my toes in the sand. Use the sleeves of my sweater, let's have an adventure. Head in the clouds, but my gravity's centered. Touch my neck, and I'll touch yours. You and your little high waisted shorts..."

Before I know it, I'm in my school's parking lot, and my stomach swirls.

Sure, I didn't want to go in because of the bitches that call me a "slut" for no reason, but also I didn't want to go in because my best friend is dating Kendall Saddle, the girl who owns my depression.

My best friend, Matthew, is supposedly "in love" with Kendall. But I see in his eyes he isn't truly happy...because I have seen him truly happy.

I've known him since we were five, and I knew him very well.

And I knew he wasn't happy with Kendall.

I get out of my car, sling my shoulder bag onto my shoulder and then stroll into the school ever so slowly.

Once I'm in, I feel a hand grasp mine, making me jump.

I first look at the hand, and see the familiar friendship bracelet that was weaved with black and white threads, and had a ying yang charm.

I smile when I realize it's the same alike bracelet of the one of my own on my wrist.

I look up from the hand and see the caring and loving hazel eyes smiling back at me.

"Hi" Matt says cheerfully.

I frown at him but still have my smile growing under my nose. "Why are you so happy?" I ask him.

Matt grins even wider as we walk still hand in hand on our way to our first class that we had together; Math.

"Oh nothing big. Just that Kendall and I are going on a date tonight" Matt smirks.

My smile disappears and my vision falls to the tile. My hand goes slack in Matt's, even though he keeps my hand gripped.

"Oh. Cool" I say in a monotone voice.

Matt doesn't notice. "I think she's the one" Matt grins.

I finally shake my hand out of Matt's, stop walking, and look Matt straight in the eye.

Stop acting happy, Matt, I think.

But then I really look at him.

I frown.