Matthew Espinosa Imagines

I just want to be happy.

This isn't an imagine. So, if you don't necessarily care for my personal life you can exit this and read the next imagine when it comes up.

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I can't take it anymore.

The pain is unbearable. The pain is something I can't even handle anymore.

There's always that moment in everyone's life where they feel empty. They feel like they have no one left even though they actually do and they feel like nothing is worth it anymore.

I don't have that moment. Because that moment is my entire life.

My parents don't care.

The love of my life will always yell and take things out on me verbally.

I'm not skinny. I'm not overweight either, but I'm not stick skinny. I'm a little chubby on my stomach and every time I see my stomach or my thighs that don't have a gap I. always. feel. worthless.

I hate public. I always feel judged. I hate stages or crowds or public speaking. Because I feel people dissecting me with their eyes and I hate it.

I cut. I do. And that probably isn't something I should share on Wattpad.

But I don't care.

I just want to be happy.

And I have no one left to help me be happy.

I have never said the words "I love my life."

And you have no idea how much I want to say those four simple words.

I don't know why I'm writing this. I just found myself crying once again and I just need something to keep me going. Something to let me know everything will be okay.

Maybe some of you out there are hurting too. Maybe some of you are going through the same thing as me.

I just want motivation.

I just want love for someone. And I'm sorry I'm writing this. I wouldn't be surprised if there wasn't even one comment.

And I'm most likely going to delete this very soon.

Writing brings me the slightest happiness. And I'm so lucky to have all my wonderful readers.

I love you all...

- abby { my real name is Ashley. Abby is my middle name. I may start using my real name. }