Matthew Espinosa Imagines

False Love

*Kylie's POV*

I sat on the bleachers, in the side lines of Matt's late night football practice. I was sitting alone on the cold metal seats, on my phone and feeling freezing and alone.

I finally put away my phone and watch as Matt tackles his teammate, and afterwards laughs with him and shoves him.

I see Matt's huge grin as my heart breaks inside of me. I miss my Matty so much. Yes, we are still dating, and have been for a couple years now, but...he hasn't treated me the same in those two years.

We don't cuddle anymore. We don't hug the same, we don't kiss the same, we don't...love the same.

I try to be perfect for him. When I'm sad, I hide my feelings because I know he doesn't care and I fake a smile. I fake a laugh, and I basically turn on my fake happiness like I'm a machine.

I just want to keep him happy, and the only way to do it now is hiding my real feelings and...faking my happiness.

I haven't had real happiness in a very long time.

Matt's Coach blows his whistle and announces that practice was over.

I stand excitedly, hoping Matt would hug me and spin me around like he used to after his games or practices, even if they lost their games. He was always just happy to have me in his arms again.

Matt walks with his team, all of them muddy and dirty.

Matt walks right past the bleachers, where I was standing.

I sigh and climb off the bleachers, running up to Matt and trying to walk beside him. I end up getting shoved by one of his teammates, Matt not even noticing. And I bet if he noticed he wouldn't even care.

I keep trying to get back to Matt's side, but keep getting pushed out. Finally, after many more attempts, Matt says goodbye to his friends and gets into his car.

But before he fully gets in, my anger finally boils.

"Matt!" I shout, my heart breaking by the minute.

Matt pauses and then turns his head to see me. His face doesn't light up or anything like it used to.

"Oh. Hey Kylie. Forgot you were here" Matt mutters, climbing back out of his car and standing in front of me.

My heart shatters. He forgot I was here? He drove me here!

I try to change the subject.

"Um...good job babe! I love watching you play" I say, smiling, it being a fake smile of course.

"Cool" Matt murmurs, staring down at his cleats. Was it really this boring to talk to me?

I clear my throat and look down at my cold hands that were turning red.

"Can I have a ride back home?" I say in my shy and quiet voice, not feeling even comfortable around my own boyfriend anymore.

"Sure, I guess" Matt says, climbing back into his truck and starting it, me hurriedly climbing into the passenger.

We drive in silence for about ten minutes until I ask a question I immediately regret asking.

"Do you want to hang out tomorrow after school?" I ask, biting my lip after the words left my mouth.

Matt answers after a minute or so.

"Not really" Matt says coldly, turning onto a new route.

My jaw literally drops right then, my heart aching now as a wanting of slits on my wrists begins to occur.

Was he serious?

I finally slam my clenched fists onto the dashboard, making Matt jump as I grit my teeth.

"What the hell did I do Matt?!" I scream, hot tears now springing out of my brown eyes, which are usually all lit up and happy when I'm with Matthew.

But now they're just...dark.

Matt's jaw clenches angrily. "You didn't do anything Kylie!" he yells.

"Then why the hell are we so broken now?! We used to be so much happier and better and in love and now you treat me like you hate my guts!" I sob, hiding my pathetic face in my hands and sobbing into my palms.

Matt suddenly pulls over to the side of the road and then turns to me with surprisingly tear filled eyes and a quivering lip.

I haven't seen Matt cry in a long, long time.

"...You think I hate you?" Matt asks in such a hushed voice that I barely hear him. Tears fell down Matt's cheeks as he bit his trembling lip.

I shake from my sobs. "You d-don't...hold me anymore. You don't k-kiss me the same anymore or love me anymore. You haven't actually kissed my lips for almost a week."

Matt's eyes divert away from mine as he starts looking like he was rethinking this whole week, which has been hell for me.

I finally get fed up and open the car door, slipping out of the car and walking down the side of the road, thunder booming as I did.

I will walk home if I have to. It'll be better than being in the car with someone who doesn't love me like I love them.

I hear footsteps behind me which makes me walk faster with anger.

Matt grabs my wrist and pulls me back. I was just about to scream at him again until he took my face forcefully in his two hands and smashed our lips together.

I try pulling away, and try kicking and hitting him, but he stays standing, and he continues kissing me.

I stop struggling when I realized he hasn't kissed me like this in a month. It would always be meaningless pecks and no second glances.

Matt puts all his true and actual love into that one kiss, his hands moving from my face to my waist, pulling me so close to him that there was no space in between us.

Thunder booms again as lightning strikes, and then rain starts pouring down on us like buckets.

But that didn't stop Matt from showing me his true feelings.

Matt finally pulls away and tucks a piece of hair behind my ear, staring into my eyes that were finally bright and happy.

And magically, an actual and meaningful smile appeared onto my face. And Matt and I both knew it wasn't fake this time.

Matt grins at me and hugs me close and tight to him, swaying us back and forth as he continued to whisper things into my ear.

"I'm so so so so sorry you amazing, beautiful girl you deserve so much better I promise I'll be better" Matt whispers, crying and sobbing into my neck as he kissed it too.

Matt brings us face to face as he then kissed me again, petting my now soaked hair.

"I'm in love with you Kylie Scarletta," Matt promises, kissing my forehead and then cradling my body in his arms as I cried happily into his shoulder.

"I'm in love with you too" I cry, grasping Matt for dear life.

And as we stood on that road, rain soaking us as we held each other and kissed each other longer than the last...we then knew we were happy. Actually...happy.

Happy as in that warm feeling in our stomachs that makes you smile and cry tears of joy at the same time.

And I never doubted us again.

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I'm so sorry if this imagine wasn't very good ;(

but I really hoped you enjoyed it kscarletta1 ;)

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