Why the villainess ran away

Chapter 2

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The end of my life was not graceful, nor was is honorable. I was late to a medical lecture and was going too fast on my bike on a bridge when a car crashed into me from the side, launching me over the rails and down a cliffside.
The drop was not scary, it was more... freeing. And I did not see a montage of my life, it was too fast for that, I just... fell.

When my eyelids fluttered open I was greeted with a luxurious room of another era. I transmigrated into the novel world when Lilith was just about to have her coming-of-age ceremony. The event was excessive as she floundered her money every chance she had. It would be an outright lie if I said I did not completely go insane. Who wouldn't? I was trapped in another world in a sort of western medieval time period? It took months of getting used to life here. Everyone thought I was finally off my rockers( which would not be surprising for the actual villainess). After the reveal of Ariel and the whole world, I realized I was in the novel and- as nothing would surprise me more than this- decided I would follow the script until my inevitable death. I knew everything about the story, i thought then. However, the author most definitely did not write the villainess was a drop-dead gorgeous beauty who would make everyone blush, if not for the fact that she made everyone fear for their lives instead. I had lushous, light blonde locks that appeared to sparkle under the moonlight and ice-blue eyes that would turn blood-red at night. Why? For the unnecessary melodramatic flair created by a sh*tty author, of course.

This body looked stunning, better than anyone else in the novel. This did not mean that I wanted to stay; I looked for any escape out of certain death, but then I thought... fulfilling my role  would send me back to my world,right?
Wrong.

It was painful. And it was hard. I had gotten used to the death threats, misunderstandings and glares which I didn't deserve, until I had become someone who did deserve them. I was glad for my first death and thanked my brother for it, to his disdain.

It did not send me back to my world.
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My third life I went back to the coming-age ceremony and tried to change my character completely, being overly nice and trying to be loved by my family. I realised the reason for the villainess being with the crown prince was not because she was madly obsessed with him, but because she desperately wanted to survive. Her excuse of a father neglected her so much she starved, and beat her because he blamed her mother's death on her. Locked her in a closet for weeks when they found out about her claustrophobia, and used her allergies against her. As I had no idea about this,when I tried to get closer, I was abused, and after years came to think this was normal.

Lilith's brother, Ezekiel, insulted her and blamed everything on her, and I took it all, hoping he would change, because my first family didn't.

I had no idea it wouldn't stop. I didn't know why everyone in my family had the inherited ice magic but I did not. They said it was my fault and I believed them. So, at the end, they took my life when I refused the offer to marry the crown prince, making it look like an unfortunate accident. In reality, my father payed a maid to throw me off the balcony.