Maisie Shelby [peaky blinders]

hold me maybe?

"whats happening" john chimes in and dad just looks as confused when katy tries to get out of his grip " she was seen with fucking nate jacobs wasnt he" i laugh " what the fuck is this over him seriously" katy just looks at pol then me " katy why you looking at me ive got nothing to do with this" pol says defending herself

" she was seen buying weed of fucking nate jacobs" " it was one time what is he your boyfriend or something please i wouldnt touch that if it was the last thing on earth" i shout the last part as john lets go of katy and puts her in a chair "oh please whys he going around you shaged him"" because hes fucking desperate thats why just because you fucking like him doesnt mean ive slept with him if your gonna beleive anything that come out of that boys mouth we are gonna have fucking issues" she pounces at me and i head but her and she falls to the floor

" fucking touch me again ill do morethan break your nose" it goes dead silent the only thing you can hear is john helping katy then dad lets go off me " we dont hurt family maisie"he shouts i roll my eyes "fucking hell theres no winning with you there. ive had enough of this she fucking just blamed me and she hit me first but still im in the fucking wrong"i shout at him as he gets angrier "maisie dont push it you dissapear and then when i try talk to you. you walk away just liek your mother" he shouts the last part i just scoff at him

i walk out slamming the door i ignore his calls to come back and i get on the train to london before i know it im sat in adas house " so tell me you didnt actually sleep with nate jacobs" i laugh " no no way i knew katy liked him so basically threatened every girl to excistance and dad is a diffrent situation i cant face hi when i do we argue* i let a few tears fall and wipes

she takes my hand in hers " he misses your mum as much as you do you know he never stopped looking for you pol said he didnt even stay in the big house he satayed at hers in his old room where you usually sleep when your there" i smile "i just wish things were easier you know i know dad knew mum longer but i miss my bestfriend i wish i could just see her again|" she pulls me into a hug and i fall asleep.

tommys pov

i get a call on the house phone "hello whos this" i hear adas voicce and untense" hey tom its me maisies at mine shes asleep shes safe" i sigh rubbing my forehead"did she say anything to you because i wanna help but fuck teenage girls" she laughs " she just says she misses her mum tom she says that she wished she was easy to love""does she think i dont love her. fuck im an awful dad" ada sighs

" no tom your not you just lost your wife but you have to be strong for maisie okay and you are not an awful dad okay your the best an awful dad was ours and you brought us up and you did an amazing job now its time to do it for your actual daughter" she laughs and i just stay quiet " what you laughing at ada"" shes asleep on my lap and shes mumbling in her sleep"

i smile remembering she would do that when she was little" shes always done that ada and tell her i called okay""yes tom night" i put the phone down and start walking around the house till i get to maisies room i see a picture of grace i smile

your pov

next morning i wake up at adas she left a note saying she had to go i lock up on my way out and post the key so thats what i done i went to the big house when i walked in i heared movement near dads office but his cars not there i take my gun out and walk towards his office and kick the door open and he has his gun up

" maisie i thought someone broke in" " you think your cars not there what the fuck i thought someone was in the house " i sigh putting the gun away and walking upstairs* " where you going" he says as i walk up the stairs " im going to change ill be back down in a bit" i get to my room and change when i see a photo off mum i feel a few tears fall.

i walk downstairs into the kitchen and get a glass of water and lean against the kitchen island when i hear someone come in "where you going now" dad stands opposite me leaning against the counter top."dunno gonna go the den i think"i say wiping my tears he goes to hug me

"dont please" i sigh " i just - i dont want you to hold me cause if you hold me. ill start to cry and i dont wanna start crying" i let some tears slip as i look at dad " cause if i start crying i will never be able to stop" he sighs as he looks at me "okay" i take a deepbreathe "okay" i feel him come closer " whatever you need ill be here" tears contiue to slide i sit on the kitchen island as i cover my mouth to cover a sob