Maisie Shelby [peaky blinders]

Apologies

Maisie's pov

We get to the garrison and it is packed with people we all sit at separate tables and me fin and Isiah are stood at the bar " do you have anything fizzy" Arthur nods and gives me a lemonade

" so we saw Sarah" I hum turn my attention to fin " she looked like she was bloody glowing" I laugh loud hitting fin and three girls walk in and my eyes turn to Sarah she's wearing a black dress

She smiles and starts walking over I go outside dragging her with me

She comes out and smiles I pin her to the wall with my arms around her waist " maisie not now-" I cut her off by kissing her she melts into me and she presses against my stomach I groan pulling away " you okay" she asks concern laced in her throat I nod " I'm okay Sarah I'm fine" I say as she steps forward

" your not why hurts" she steps closer and I step back which obviously triggered her as she scoffs and rolls her eyes going into the garrison I huff and walk in after her going to the table where dad and Alfie are " what's wrong" dad asks I shakes my head giving him a smile " nothing I'm okay" he hums I end up looking at Sarah without realising

Someone kicks my shin " stop looking at her and go do something" I shake my head at dads voice as Sarah take to a boy " well let me tell you this he putting his hand on her waist" I shrug " oh well I'm going to find Isiah" shoving pst the lad with Sarah

" I'm gonna loose my shit" I say to the boys staring at Sarah and the lad she's been speak to for 30 minutes and his hand is now on her waist " go do something maisie" I shake my head " what and humiliate myself and possibly Sarah if she isn't out" they looks at each other then back at me " she is out maisie"

But why is she with him and near all of my family " fine" I get up and walk to Sarah moving the lads hand and takes Sarah by the hand making her stand up and face me pulling her to the bar where I was stood I pull her close kissing her

We pull away and she give me a smile and she stays by my side all night till and we stumble out of the garrison to Sarah's house

She opens the door we walk in and I connect our lips and she starts unbutton my top I step away " no Sarah let me-" she cuts me off " please maisie you've seen all of me" I shake my head stepping back " Sarah I said no" I say stirnly she huffs and it's silent

" I'm gonna go" I say fixing my blazer " maisie don't please" I walk out slamming the door and walk to pols I wipe my tears before walking in I see polly sat at the kitchen table "is Ada here" she sake her head I nod and sit at the table

I put my head in my arm " what's wrong" I shrug " everything right now" I sigh sitting up " I know your sorry pol and I was listening" she smiles at me

" I'm gonna go find esme" she nods and points to the closed den I walk in and see esme " hey can we talk" she nods waving me over I put my back to polly " I -how do I put this" I mumble to myself " I hate myself is the best way to say it and when someone else wants to see what you hate what do I do" esme gives me a sad smile

" your secret lover you mean" I nod at her " you wait until your ready then you do but you love you first" I nod at her letting it sink in " I like her a lot I do and I should have just opened up god sake" esme squeals "it's a girls"

She asks me questions all night and I Jumo awake from someone kicking the table I've got my head resting on it " wake up you need to go home" I groan sitting up " are you driving me" dad nods

When we get home I go to my room and change into a sleep shirt and some long shorts I tie my hair into a bun " maisie you-" I run to my toilet and throw up

" you okay" I hum in response " get into bed I'll get you water" I nod nod stand up walking back into my room I see my stitches have reopened " dad" I shout her comes running in " maisie -" I press my hand to my stomach as I put on some slip on boots

Dad grab his jacket and we go downstairs as fast as possible Mary passes me a clothe on my stomach as we get in the car and dad starts driving to the hospital " maisie keep speaking to me about anything something" I hum as the cloth becomes red

" maisie" I take a deep breathe " are y-you and Alfie a thing or o-r you and Lizzie but mum what a-about her-her" take takes a deep breathe " don't know maisie" I hum and pain takes over my body as I groan in pain

"Maisie speak" I groan in pin " h-how far dad" he shrugs " I dunno but I caugh a blonde girl in the house" I blush " are you blushing right now" " she's nice well was I messed up like I awaits do" I close my eyes dad slaps my face

" stay awake we are 2 minutes away" I nod and after we get there they put me on a bed and wheel the through " I want dad" the nurses put a needle in me I scream

I can deal with a gun shot blood knives but not needles. My eyes become heavy and I get knocked out

I wake up and groan the drugs have wore off and my cheeks feel wet and puffy from crying when they had pinned me down drugging me " maisie it's Alfie your dad had to go to Birmingham" I open my eyes and see Alfie smirking " hello" I give him a weak smile

" they said you are stitches back up double stitches this time and a blonde is waiting in the hall" I nod and a tear rolls down my face " what's wrongs" I go to move my hand and see a bandage over the the Needle " I told them to do it because you hate them" I nod at Alfie

The door swings open and in walks Sarah

She looks at me and Alfie " I'll leave you two to talk" he walks out shutting the door she stands at the end of the bed and I go to wipe my face and again I feel a tug in the iv "dick head" I start unwrapping the bandage and she slaps my hand away

" stop they are helping you" she's gets a chair and sits next to the bed " I'm sorry I shouldn't have made you feel pressured but when I heated you was hurt I punched fin because he wouldn't let me come" I laugh

" I shouldn't have shouted and lost it when we you know" she grabs my hand and puts her head on the side of the bed

Tommys pov

I just went to pols because John got involved with Italians and now I am going to the hospital. I walk in and a nurse stops me " mr solomans told me to tell you she has company" I nod and walk to her room and open it seeing the blonde girls head resting on Maisie's hand with there fingers laced

I sit down lighting a cigarette the blonde wakes up " we meet again" she hums and yawns " hello" she mumbles " do you know what they said" she shakes her head I sigh and the girl stands up

" I have to go tell her I said bye" I nod and she walks to the door and shuts the door lightly " mr Shelby she can be discharged when she wakes up" I nod she walkes out slamming the door and Maisie jumps awake

" people and fucking doors" she mumbles as she lays back down " maisie put this on I'll be outside" she nods as I chuck her the best and I walk outside