Cassie's Tale on Life, Love and Loss

Chapter 30

I call the nearest Chinese food restaurant for some General Tso's chicken and vegetable lo mein. I miss having take out with my mom. Its like everything around me reminds me of her and things we used to do.

I pull out my phone to call Serena to ask her where Axel is.

"Cass!!! Omg I miss you. How are you dealing with... The situation?" She answered.

"It could be better, a lot better, but I'm moving in with my aunt in Detroit because that is what was on my mother's will" I sighed.

"What? That is so far, we'll never be able to visit you!" She said, I could tell she was pouting.

"I know, but maybe we'll end up at the same college" I giggled "How's everything up there? How's Ax?" I change the subject. This is gun, talking to someone and not having to talk about my mom or the funeral or any of that.

"Things are pretty good. Ax on the other hand is being a complete dumbass. He's been ignoring you thinking that giving you space will help you... get over what's going on" she explained

"Really, I was here really worried about him. I was so scared that I might have lost two people I love the most in. The same week" immediately as u said that I realized that I did love Axel.

"Love!?! You just said you love him?!?! Oh sweet Lord. Thus is awesome" she started to rant. I could tell from her voice that she was pacing the floor.

"No its not awesome. I love him and I can't be there to be with him. I have to move all the way to Detroit, even further from you guys." I say pouting.

"Or you could runaway and we could hide you in our attic" Serena replies.

"Yeah because that will work." I say laughing so hard. This girl is the only one that really knows how to cheer me up.

"Hey tell Axel to stop being stupid and reply to my messages." I add.

"Okay, I'll deliver the message word for word as you said" she giggled.

"Thanks Rena. Go to sleep now, you have school tomorrow. I'll text you later." I said and she told me goodnight.

Ten minutes later I got a really long message from the boy I love.

Heybeautiful:* I'm so sorry. I know I should have been there for you, I just couldn't deal with the fact thatI am not there to comfort you, so I thought it would be best for me to give. But that has been almost impossible for me to. Love you baby girl

Ok I think I need to get my eyes checked, there is no way Axel just told me that he loves me.

Me: I think you misspelled the first word in that last sentence...

Ax: No I didn't. I love you Cass. I've known I have since you said it.

Wait what I never told him that I love him, I said it to Serena but never to him directly.

Me: When did I tell you that? Not that I don't, but I'm lost.

Ax: The night before you left when we were sleep. You said it in your sleep. You said "I love you and I always have, even when you didn't know my name" it was so cute.

Me: Are you serious? Omg, that's so embarrassing.

Ax: No, it wasn't. It made me realize that I love you too.

Me: Awww:* Did Serena tell you that I was moving to Detroit now?

Ax: Yea she told me, so I guess I'm gonna go to college in Detroit, so I can see you.

Me: We don't even want to major in the same things, we probably won't end up at the same college

Ax: Then I guess I'm going to have to change my major. I WILL be with the girl I love, the only girl I've ever really loved.

Me: What do you mean "the only girl"? Didn't you love Christina?

Ax: I thought I did, but the feelings that I had for her were just sexual, with you I love everything about you, from the way you bite your lip after we kiss to the way you look down at your shoes when I tell you that you're beautiful.

Me: Omg, who knew Axel Ramirez, notorious bad boy, was so good with words.

Ax: Shhh, don't tell anyone. Lol

Me: I'm gonna go to sleep, got a big day tomorrow. Love you, jock.

Ax: Text me after. Love you sweet cheeks.

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AUTHORS NOTE

So this chapter was pretty much dialogue. Someone PMed me asking for more Axel and Cassie moments.

XOXO, my lovelies