Gold Love

Chapter Twenty Two

"Baby, talk to me. You can't just expect me to hold you every night and expect you to turn me away when the sun comes up." Calvin stands in front of my desk in the office.

I place my pen down and look up at him from where I'm sitting, "Are you complaining?"

His eyebrows pinch together, "No. I just want to know what's been going on these past few weeks. Something's wrong but you don't want to talk to me."

Ever since I called him the night that I saw the picture of my mother, he's been coming over to spend the night with me. I just can't get myself to open up to him. I ask him every night if he'll tell me why he was so comfortable with Danielle and his answer is always the same. It's complicated. So I decided to take my time with him as borrowed time and cuddle up next to the person who I thought was there for me and do my best to fall asleep.

"Calvin. I love you and I love that you're there for me when I need you, but you still haven't explained things about Danielle. How are we supposed to move on from that?" I lean back on my chair when he finally sits on a chair across from my desk as if he's exhausted.

He shakes his head while his eyes look sad and begging me to understand, "Baby, it's complicated."

I scoff, "Then there's nothing more to talk about."

No need in opening up to him and telling him my fears when he's the one pushing me away.

He rubs his hands on his face frustratedly before looking at me with those piercing blue eyes again, "Go with me to Ryan's birthday party tomorrow. Please."

I shake my head, "I'm going with the twins."

"Caroline."

"I'm done listening to you telling me that it's complicated and that I won't understand. I'm telling you right now, Calvin. Understand this. I'm not a fool and I won't play as one so if you can't explain to me why you and Danielle were comfortable with each other then you can throw our relationship out of the window because I'm done listening to the same old excuse." I finally stand from my seat and so does he.

"I need to make sure this won't affect you before I can tell you." His voice is desperate and my heart tugs at the sound of it.

My heart feels heavy, "Is she pregnant?"

"Hell no!" He looks mad now.

Clearing my throat and feeling more confused than before, I shake my head, "You shouldn't come over anymore, Calvin."

He storms out angrily and I can't help but take a deep breath so I can get back to work. Being at work seems like the only thing that's been helping me get my mind off of my sad life.

How could I go from having nothing and feeling alone and sad to having everything and more and still feeling sad?

When it's finally time to go home. I first stop at the grocery store and get some things for dinner. When I get home, Ruth's already getting the marinated chicken out. Lately, I've been teaching her how to cook and she's actually getting the hang of it pretty quickly.

"Alright, I got us some veggies to roast." I place the bag on the kitchen island.

"Yummy." She turns around to turn on the oven. "I got it from here, Care Bear. I want to cook this meal on my own this time."

Smiling, I nod. I go upstairs to take a quick shower while she cooks. Ever since I've been taking my iron pills, the shower isn't a problem anymore.

I change into a silky pajama set and go back downstairs. Just when I reach the bottom of the stairs, there's a knock at the door.

I go to open it and it's Bunny.