Mrs Malfoy

Chapter 8

I turned over groggily but the bed felt cold and empty. I opened my eyes to see that I was now alone. A sudden wave of grief hit me. I missed her and her presence. I felt almost, betrayed.

I decided to get up and find her. I slipped on my dressing gown and left the room. The house was still silent so it must be early.

I wandered through the halls until I got to the kitchen. I opened the door and saw her stood at the bench making a cup of coffee. She had her back to me so I walked up behind her. I snaked my arms around her waist which gave her a shock. She spilt the coffee on the bench and she cursed to herself.

"Jesus Y/N!" she whisper shouted. "Sorry. Just wanted to say good morning" I smiled. Strangely, she didn't smile back. "Is everything alright?" I asked a little hurt.

"No. I'm sorry Y/N but we need to pretend last night never happened. I shouldn't have asked to stay with you, or kissed you" she whispered the last part like she was ashamed. I just stared at her in confusion.

"Aren't you going to say something?" she said, acting like this situation was no big deal. "Yes okay. Last night never happened" I said quietly. My heart broke into a million pieces. I was crushed.

She went back to wipe up the spilt coffee as Pansy and Draco walked in. "Morning mother, Y/N" Draco cheered. "Morning" I mumbled, pushing past them and running into the garden. My eyes filled with tears, I had to be away from her.

I found a seat at the bottom of the garden and sat on it, immediately burying my head in my hands. I understood that we could never be together but I have feelings! I don't even know if she knows how much she hurt me.

I've never loved anyone this much before. I've also never believed in love at first sight but, this has to be it. Something about her just makes me feel so special.

Why would she want to pretend last night never happened, when it did? She was the one that kissed me first and asked me to stay the night. I get that she has a husband still and Draco to think about but, what about me? "I'm so selfish" I cried.

I suddenly felt an arm wrap around my shoulder. I jumped and immediately looked up to realise it was Pansy. "What's going on Y/N? You look exhausted and why are you crying?"

"Oh, it's nothing" I shrugged, wiping away my tears. "It's definitely not 'just nothing'. Speak to me" she demanded. "I can't Pansy"

I looked at her, my eyes all puffy and bloodshot. "Do I have to go and get Mrs Malfoy?" she asked. My stomach churned at the sound of her name. I immediately shook my head, I couldn't face her, or let her see me like this; especially when it is because of her.

"Tell me what's wrong then Y/N" Pansy demanded. I knew I had to tell her, she is very persistent and I don't want Narcissa to know that she upset me. "I love her" I said, my eyes brimming with tears once again.

"Love who?" Pansy questioned. I turned to face her, "Narcissa" I whispered. Her eyes widened and her mouth opened. "You love Draco's mother?" she said a little too loudly. I clasped my hand to her mouth to keep her quiet.

"Pansy not so loud! Anyone could hear" I said, removing my hand as she nodded. "But you've only just met her. And she's married and... Draco's mother!" she said, still in shock.

I turned away from her and stared up at the house. "I know. But she just makes me feel so special Pansy. I don't know what to do" She put her arm around me and I cried into her shoulder. "Did she say something to you in the kitchen before we walked in?"

"Uh yeah. She stayed with me last night and she basically told me that everything was a mistake and she wants us to act like it never happened. It really hurt to hear her say that" I cried, still into her shoulder.

"Has she touched you?" Pansy asked angrily. I pulled away from he immediately and wiped my nose. I shook my head, "no, not exactly"

She clenched her jaw, "elaborate please". "We have hugged and kissed, that is all"

"So she is leading you on. I swear I'll-" "you'll do nothing!" I cut her off. I know that she is just looking out for me but I can look after myself. Besides, I need to be strong.

"I'm just worried about you Y/N" she sighed, her eyes were growing bloodshot. "Pansy, don't cry. I'm fine, I just need to work things out. Come here" I said, grasping her tightly and giving her a long hug.

I don't know where I would be without a caring friend like Pansy sometimes.

"Come on. Let's go back inside" I said, grabbing her hand to walk back into the manor. I needed to show Narcissa that she hasn't hurt me.