Mrs Malfoy

Chapter 21

Your pov

I saw the rest of the week out, never leaving Narcissa's side. I was now back at Hogwarts and seriously missing her.

Flashback

"Have a safe journey" she smiled. Draco hugged his mother goodbye and boarded the train with Pansy. I stayed.

"Darling, you need to get on the train now" she sighed. I just pouted at her, "can I at least have a hug?"

She chuckled and pulled me close. "I wish I could kiss you right now" I whispered in her ear. "I know darling, me too" she replied.

I held onto her for as long as I possibly could, knowing this would be the last time I would feel her touch for a while.

She made me understand that school is still important and that I can still see her at weekends but that still doesn't take away the hurt of being away from her. Deep down, I was worried that she would forget about me and even take Lucius back.

I was scared that she would realise that I'm too young for her and start to hate me.

She finally pulled away as the platform was beginning to empty. "Y/N, I need you to get on the train now. Otherwise, you won't be going to school" she laughed. I reluctantly pulled away and made my way to the train doors.

I looked back once more and mouthed 'I love you' as the doors closed and blew me a kiss. I pretended to catch it and hold it close to my heart.

The train began to move away from the platform and I watched as she slowly got further and further away.

I took a deep breath and found where Draco and Pansy were seated. "Are you alright?" Draco asked as I sat down with them.

I nodded and looked out of the window, staying silent for most of the journey.

Back to the present

I was sat in the common room alone since classes don't start until tomorrow. I decided to read 'Sweeney Todd' again since it brought me close to her. I can remember her reading it to me like it was yesterday.

I suddenly felt someone touch my shoulder, snapping me back to reality. I turned around in a state of fear and saw a blonde boy stood behind me. I panicked and jumped up but then realised it was only Draco.

"Sorry! I didn't mean to scare you" he panicked. "No, it's alright. I shouldn't be so pathetic" I sighed. I won't lie, I thought it was Lucius when I looked up at first. Draco resembles his father too much.

"I came to say, I need your help" he seemed worried. "Why? What is it" I asked.

He took me by the hand and guided me out of the common room. "Not here"

He took us to the black lake and we sat down to talk. "I've been given a task by the dark lord but I can't do it alone" she started. "What task would that be?" I asked, thinking it surely can't be bad.

"I need to kill Dumbledore" my stomach dropped. He didn't actually just say that... did he?

"Draco, you can't be serious!" his expression never changed. He wasn't kidding. "What do you need me to do?" I asked him.

"I need to fix a cabinet... in the room of requirement" I nodded, understanding what he was asking. "What exactly is it for?" I questioned.

"To get the death eaters into school, the dark lord requested that they be here should anything go wrong" he spoke nonchalant.

"Bellatrix?" I said, knowing she was an ex-death eater. He merely nodded and my heart dropped. "Okay" was all I managed to say before heading back to the castle, leaving him to his own thoughts.

It was getting dark so I knew there wouldn't be many students around. I let a few tears fall as I entered the building.

I wasn't watching where I was going since my eyes were filled with tears and bumped into someone. "I'm sorry!" I heard her say. I immediately recognised the voice and looked up to see my best friend stood before me.

I said nothing and pulled her into a long hug. "Hey Y/N, is everything alright? Why are you crying!" Hermione asked, hugging me back tightly.

"It's nothing, I'm so glad to see you Mione" I sniffled into her shoulder. "I'm glad to see you too! Have you had a good summer?" she asked.

"Yeah, it was pretty good I guess. You?" I replied, internally smirking. There is no way she can find out about Narcissa and I, nobody can. As much as I want to shout it from the rooftops, it's too dangerous.

"Yeah my summer was amazing. I spent most of it at the Burrow with Harry and Ron. You should have come over Y/N" Hermione said. "It's alright. I had fun at Draco's"

"Oh yeah, I forgot that was where you were staying. Anyways, do you want to come to my dorm and we can talk about why you're upset?" Hermione asked. I wanted to say yes and tell her everything but I can't.

I can't tell her anything, not even about Draco. Because then she will have to tell Harry and he will tell Dumbledore leading to Draco's death.

"Sorry Hermione, I'm pretty tired so I think I'm just going to go to bed if that's alright. I'll catch up with you tomorrow though?" she looked a little let down so I felt bad.

"Of course, that's fine. I'll see you tomorrow. Go and get some rest, I really hope that you're alright" I thanked her and walked off, crying even more now.

Why is my life so bloody complicated?

I got to my room and saw that Pansy was asleep already. I sat on the edge of my bed with my head in my hands.

I began contemplating my life again, nothing felt worth it unless I was with Narcissa.

I glanced over and noticed my untouched pills. I hadn't needed them over the holidays so I left them in my trunk out of the view of Narcissa.

I popped one out of the packet and dry swallowed it. Once I was sure it had gone down, I lay down in bed and slowly drifted off to sleep.