Written In Reverse

Part 2

DEANNA'S POV

I stretched out my arm as much as I could to reach the remote and turn off the TV. I didn't wanna move my torso kasi naka sandal yung ulo ni Jema sa dibdib ko. And she's sleeping so peacefully.

Sya pa tong excited kanina kasi may bagong movie sa Netflix. Maya maya wala nang imik. Ayan nakatulog na pala.

I started stroking her hair with one arm while the other was hugging her.

I can feel her calmness overcome me too.

Na notice ko ganyan kami ngayon. Our energies are so in sync. Kung ano man ang nararamdaman ng isa ay para namang nahahawa yung isa.

Kaya naman kahit minsan malungkot ako, I try my best to suppress it kasi alam ko it will affect Jema too.

I held her tighter and kissed the top of her head. I don't know what I would do if I would lose her. Just thinking about it make my heart tighten up. Nagiging teary eyed din ako.

Hoy Deanna ayan kana naman. Nag o-overthink. You deserve this okay. You deserve her.  Isip isip ko.

Even now though, I still can't fully wrap my head around it. How did I get so lucky?

Kahit ngayon, I still can't get used to her presence. Kinikilig pa rin ako. Just when I thought I couldn't fall any deeper, well may gagawin sya that makes me fall even more.

There are times din naman na di maiwasang mag away kami.

I mean malaking adjustment naman talaga yung current situation namin.

Imagine, one moment we were living reasonably separate lives tapos biglang pinagsama kami sa iisang bubong.

Hindi naman sa hindi ko gusto but sometimes it just gets too much para sa aming dalawa.

Kung noon we can go to our separate condos or hang out with separate group of friends para mawala yung init ng ulo tuwing nag-aaway kami, ngayon we literally have no choice but to suck it up and be in each other's presence kahit galit kami sa isa't isa.

This is also the reason why minsan may nabibitawan kaming masasakit na salita. Because we didn't have time to diffuse. We're always in the heat of the moment. Wala namang pwede mag walk out kasi nga lockdown and besides if either of us goes out of this room without the other person, for sure ma notice ng family ni Jema yun.

Ayaw din naman namin ipakita sa kanila tuwing nag aaway kami. So we are forced to sweep everything under the rug. Pretend na okay kami around her family hanggang sa makalimutan nalang din namin yung away namin.

I can tell we're starting to wear each other out. The tension between us is starting to build up pero pilit parin namin isinantabi ang lahat. We have to make this work. We have to.

We're planning on spending the rest of our lives together. If we can't handle a few months, then it will prove na hindi namin kaya panindigan ang isa't isa hanggang huli. Hindi pwede yun.

Kahit naman galit ako sa kanya minsan, it doesn't mean I stopped loving her. If anything, it just goes to show na mahal ko talaga sya kasi may pake ako sa kanya. May pake ako pag may ginawa syang hindi ko gusto kaya nagagalit ako.

Mas worrying ata if one day ma feel ko nalang na wala na akong pake kung ano pang gawin nya. It will mean I've stopped fighting for her.

"Penny for your thoughts?" nabigla ako nang biglang nagsalita si Jema.

Nagising pala sya.

"Hey you" I smiled at her. "I was just thinking how different things have been lately. Our whole dynamic was definitely rocked by this pandemic situation"

"I know. Alam ko nahihirapan tayo mag adjust but I bet we can make it work right?" sabi nya nang nakatingin sa akin.

Damn those eyes. Di talaga nakakasawa tingnan eh.

"Always" sabi ko naman sa kanya.

I gently kissed her forehead pero mas tumingala sya sa akin.

So I planted feather light kisses on both her eyelids and finally inangkin ko ang mga labi nya.

Tinugon naman kaagad ni Jema ang halik ko. She gently bit my lower lip. Juskooo naghahamon ang bb ko.

I propped her up para nakapatong sya sa akin and positioned one leg in between both her legs.

She started grinding sa hita ko at ramdam na ramdam ko ang init ng pagkababae nya. I grabbed her ass and inalalayan syang mas idiin ang sarili nya sa hita ko.

Slowly, I snaked my hand inside her shorts so now I was cluting her bare ass. I made a push and pull movement to rock her ass back and forth. Sinabayan naman ito ni Jema sa pag giling ng bewang nya.

She was riding me while looking straight into my eyes.

I could feel my arousal creeping even higher nang bigla itong huminto.

She broke our kiss and just looked at me.

Hingal na hingal kaming dalawa.

"Noooooo please don't stop. I want you so bad" sabi ko at nag pout. Ang init na ng batok ko.

Umalis lang sya sa pagkakapatong sa akin and headed for the door.

Huh? Anong nangyari dun? Shit naman oh bitin. Patay ka sakin mamaya.

Author's Note: Ayan na slight SPG haha. Really not sure yet if this gonna be a long or short story. Though I'm leaning towards keeping this short.

But then again same strategy na naman ako dati hehe I'm just making things up as I go. Wala pa pong definite layout and ending yung story so please bear with me.

Be kind guys.