Written In Reverse

Part 15

JEMA'S POV

"Ma'am pasensya na po pero di na po pwede pumasok dito"

"Kuya sige na naman oh. Importante po talaga na maka pasok ako kahit saglit lang po" pagmamakaawa ko sa security guard.

"Ma'am bawal po talaga eh. Pasensya na po. Kailangan ko po ang trabahong ito"

Sinubukan ko pa rin sundan si Deanna sa airport kaso pasahero lang daw ang pinapapasok kahit sa waiting area due to COVID safety protocols.

Wala na din akong nagawa kundi umuwi ng luhaan at muntikan pa ako ma disgrasya.

I could barely see because of the tears clouding my vision.

Nasanay akong si Deanna palagi yung nag so-sorry kapag nay aaway kami. Kahit minsan di nya kasalanan pero sya pa rin unang nag so-sorry palagi.

Kaya naman grabe yung confidence ko na tatanggapin nya ko ulit because this time I'm the one who's saying sorry.

Pero ibang Deanna ang humarap sakin.

She was so guarded.

I can't blame her for it pero akala ko talaga magiging okay kami.

But it's been almost a year since that day.

The day that I let my heart and my life walk away.

One of my biggest regrets.

All those nights of endlessly stalking Deanna, seeing photos of her partying at may iba't ibang babaeng inaakbayan.

Does she bring them home?

Does she bed them?

Does she make love to them the way she made love to me?

Napupuno pa rin ako ng selos just thinking about it. Deanna touching someone else. Or worse, someone else touching Deanna.

Fuck! Sarap mag wala eh.

I only stopped when I noticed na hindi na pa iba iba yung mga babaeng katabi nya sa pictures.

There's this girl that's always with her and her friends.

"In fairness, maganda sya. Hayyyy." sabi ko kay Kyla sa phone.

"Eh ano ngayon? Maganda ka din naman dzuh"

"Alam mo minsan nag  s-story si Deanna ng food but it doesn't escape my eyes that there's another plate in the background. So may kasama sya. Probably that girl."

Di ko ma stalk yung girl because Deanna doesn't tag her sa pics. Only her other friends.

"Give me a few minutes bes, detective mode muna ako"

I could hear Kyla's keyboard clacking away on the other line.

"Raphiel Shannon, that's her name" she confidently said.

"Ayy wow! Daig mo pa ata yung FBI bes."

After some thorough research, I found out that she's on YT. She does acoustic covers and anlamig naman talaga ng boses.

"Shit. Ano naman laban ko dito bes?" nalulungkot na sabi ko kay Kyla.

"Bes baka nakalimutan mo, magaling ka din po kumanta"

"Not as good as her. Kahit ako siguro ma iinlove din sa kanya eh"

"Edi agawin mo nalang sya kay Deanna hahaha"

"Loka ka talagang kausap kahit kailan eh!"

After nun, di na ako masyadong nag stalk kay Deanna.

I have no right to protest her happiness. After all, kasalanan ko rin naman.

Pero ang sakit lang kasi eh.

"Mag move on ka nalang din bes. Training na tayo ulit next week. Baka may bagong members sa team na pwede hahaha"

"Actually, may mga nagpaparamdam naman bes pero it feels so wrong. I still feel like I'm cheating on Deanna pag nag entertain ako sa kanila."

"So what you're trying to say is, loyal ka pa rin kay Deanna kahit wala na kayo? Ganern?"

"Parang ganon na nga"

"Nako mag ayos ka na para bukas bes"

"Ha? Bakit?"

"May appointment ka sa Vatican. Gagawin ka na daw santo kasi napaka martyr mo eh! St. Jema, patron saint ng mga marurupok na martyr" biro ni Kyla.

"Yoko na! Kaloka ka hahahaha"

Kababalik ko lang sa condo kasi magsisimula na daw yung training namin.

It was raining hard so naisipan kong mag ramen sa baba. Pampa init lang.

I still find myself doing things na maaalala ko si Deanna.

Masokista ata ako eh.

I was sitting outside with Milo. Di naman kami nababasa kasi may extended roof yung place.

Busy ako sa phone ko nang biglang may isang maliit asong kumaripas ng takbo papunta sa amin.

Medyo kahawig ito ni Milo.

They immediately wagged their tails and started licking each other.

I was too shocked to react at first until tumalon talon din yung aso sakin.

"Ollie? Is that you?"

Mas naging excited pa si Ollie when I said his name.

"It is you! Oh baby! How did you get here huh? Oh I've missed you so much" I said while hugging him.

San kaya galing tong si Ollie? Tumingin ako sa paligid.

Then I saw her.

Nagmamartilyo agad ang puso ko.

All the noise faded. All I could hear was my heart hammering away.

We just stared at each other for a few seconds.

I felt like I was under some kind of spell.

"Hoy! Sumilong ka nga dito!"

I finally mustered.

Author's Note: Oh ayan na ang Mare nyo haha. Na miss ko din sya eh.

Finollow na uli ni Boss D si Mare sa IG 😱 huhu Ano na?

Be kind always.