𝐢 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ⇾𝘴𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘬

SEVEN :

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"Are you having fun?" Scout yells over to me trying to compete with the blaring music. It was an hour or two into the party and I was sitting by the fire drinking cheap beer.

I shrug and give him a small smile in response. He takes a seat next to me. The strong smell of alcohol wafting towards me.

"Sadie is here. Did you see?" He looks over at me as I nod my head.

I had seen her. She paused briefly when she saw me and for a moment I thought she'd come to talk to me, but she turned the other way instead. I wasn't all that surprised in complete honesty.

I wanted to get what happened between the two of us off my chest. To tell someone but I knew it would be cruel to tell him. Sometimes I feel like he knows me better than anyone. I loved talking to Finn and we had grown pretty close, but it just wasn't the same.

Neither him or Carmen had asked me what was wrong. Why I wasn't showing up to school.

"I've been a bad friend. I was horrible to you. I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am." I turn to look at Scout. Even apologizing now didn't feel enough I don't know what would be. I couldn't read him he stared directly at the fire clutching the cup in his hand.

We sat in silence for a bit before he inched a bit closer to me and wrapped his arm around me. It took me by surprise but I really needed it. I placed my head on his shoulder trying very hard not to let my eyes water.

"I can't begin to imagine how hard this is for you," He pauses. "and, I want you to be happy, I really do, even if that isn't with me. I've thought about it and I don't want to lose you completely. Just know that i'll always be here. "

His words make me incredibly sad and happy all at once. He's perfect and he cared for me. What is wrong with me? A couple tears had rolled down my cheeks. I couldn't help but wonder if he was only saying that because he was drunk or if he really meant it. Either way I appreciated it.

Not long after our short conversation of what I hoped was reconciliation thunder had begun to strike in the cold sky. I grasped Scout's arm and tried leading him the best I could towards Carmen. The party wasn't going to be going on for much longer.

Once in the car rain began to pour down as teenagers scatter towards their cars. Carmen looks over at me nervously as her hands grip the steering wheel. "I'm not good at this. Hold on tight."

"Maybe- Maybe I should drive!" Scout protests from the back seat making Carmen roll her eyes. He was evidently drunk it would be a miracle if he could keep his eyes open long enough to make it around the corner.

After a few harsh turns and abrupt stops Carmen drops me off at my house. The rain hadn't stopped, soaking me from head to toe as I ran towards the door. The house was vacant just as I had suspected so I made my way up to my room locking the door behind me. I was incredibly paranoid of break ins.

Throwing my wet clothes in my hamper I slip into warm clothes and put Silver Springs by Fleetwood Mac on repeat to fill the silence.

I felt relief for the first time in a while. It seemed as if I had finally gotten my friends back. I only hoped that they wouldn't forget all about me once they no longer felt bad for me. The future was uncertain but at the very least I could say that today was a good day. I need more of them.

A knock at my window startles me causing me to back up and press my back to the bed frame. It was my worst fear. All alone in a big house while someone stood outside my window.

A few second passed and there was another knock. I peered over at the window to see Sadie with her hand pressed against the glass. I run over and open the window allowing her to jump through into my room. My heart raced not only from fear but seeing her standing in front of me, completely drenched.

"Hey." I let out with a hint of confusion.

She doesn't respond. Her fists were balled up and she just stared at me for a moment. Before I knew it she had lunged towards me grabbing the sides of my face and placing her lips over mine in urgency. Stunned I stood completely still for a second attempting to process what was occuring. Once I understood I quickly cupped her cheek and kissed her back. After what felt like an eternity I break the kiss and pant trying to catch my breath. I was in shock to say the very least.

"My heart is racing." She whispers still close enough to my face to feel her hot breath on my cold cheeks.

I nod my head in agreement, "Mine is too." What was I supposed to do now? I was already eager to kiss her once more as greedy as it may sound. We had kissed before but this time was different. This time I knew how I felt.

As if she could read my mind she kissed me again except this time it was short and gently. I savored it no thoughts racing through my mind just bliss.

The rest of the night was spent talking about sweet nothings both enjoying each other's company. Neither wanting to spoil the moment by mentioning the realities of our situation. She had decided to spend the night. She wore my clothes to and slept with her head in the crook of my neck. It all seemed perfect. But I couldn't keep the negative thoughts away.