𝐢 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ⇾𝘴𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘬

THREE :

"is it too much to ask for something great?"
-One Direction

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I sit on the kitchen island twirling the spiraled wire connecting the phone to the wall. My heart is racing as I squirm with anticipation. The sound of the phone humming as I wait for a response begins to drive me crazy.

I release a sigh beginning to grow even more impatient. Scooting my body off of the cold tiled counter I walk over to the wall ready to hang up the phone when I hear the phone stop dialing and someone speak softly, "Hello?".

My heart stops at the sound of her voice. I lean my back against the wall and throw my head back making a small thumping sound. I rub the back of my head and stutter quietly into the phone.

"Finn?" She speaks into the phone in a stern tone.

"N-no it's Lana." I almost whisper. She remains quiet for a moment.

I begin to feel my palms sweat and slightly begin to shake as I play with the yellow phone cord.

"Oh, Lana. Is everything ok?" Her voice sounds silky as always , but you could hear a hint of concern as well.

I quietly clear my throat, "Yeah, everything's fine, I was just wondering if you wanted to hang out. Or something." I squeeze my eyes shut and bang my head softly against the wall once again feeling like a complete idiot.

I need to stop doing that.

I had promised myself that I was going to face this head on rather than avoiding it for as long as I could. Carmen made me realize that the only way to understand what I was feeling was to allow myself to actually process instead of suppressing everything.

Although avoiding it completely sounded pretty appealing I knew I needed to do this.

"Sure, what do you want to do?" Sadie chuckles lightly.

I look down at my bare feet stepping on the other with a small smile.

I scrunched my nose while taking my bottom lip between my teeth. If I was being honest I hadn't thought up to this point. Quietly humming I speak up once again, "Do you want to go to the movies? or something...," I pause for a second feeling stupid for even speaking. "I need to stop saying that," I mumble quietly still looking down at my feet.

Sadie chuckles once again, making my heart race faster than it already was. I was beginning to feel light head the only thought in my head was 'oh my god, I'm about to have a heart attack.'

"Yeah, sure. Meet me at my house?" I release the breath I wasn't even aware I was holding all while subconsciously nodding my head.

Reminding myself she couldn't see me I quickly respond, "Yeah, yes. I'll be there in ten minutes. If that's cool?"I soundlessly argue with myself for being a wreck.

"That's cool. See ya then." Sadie hums before ending the call.

I quickly slam the phone back onto the holder and run out of the kitchen and up to my room. Before I can grab onto the door handle I feel my weight shift and feel a burning sensation on my elbow as I fall with a loud thud. Slowly picking myself up I look at my elbow and see the pink, stinging patch of skin. Rug burn.

Ignoring the burning pain I rush into my room ripping my denim jacket off the hanger and grabbing my beat-up black converse.

After throwing on my jacket over my baby blue jumper I aggressively attempt to shove my foot into my shoe while balancing my self on one foot. Not even a second later I was back on the floor with another loud thud.