STRAY KIDS one shots 2

If It Were You (🎶)

SINGER : JUNG SEUNG HWAN

ALBUM : ANOTHER MISS OH, Pt 5

RELEASED DATE : 2016

COVER BY : SKZ - I.N

Jeongin p.o.v

Why is it so hard for you
To clearly see how I suffer?
You are the only one
Who hurt me, so surprisingly
The days are struggle
Even when I'm dreaming, it hurts

Y/n:*worried* You look pale Innie, are you sick?
Jeongin:*smile* I'm okay.
Y/n:*worried* Let me check your tem-

As you want to put your hand on mine, you are pulled away. A man, who you claimed to be yours, who take you away from me, who pull me away from the sweet nightmare I'm living in, who I hate so much, take you away from me.

Y/n's boyfriend: He is okay babe. We are almost late for our appointment. See you next time Jeongin.
Jeongin:*sad smile* Yeah, next time.

If it were you, how would it be?
If those tough days became yours
If you were as lonely as me
And you were broken down, would you know
That my heart is about to burst
It's filled up with the pain
And how much I want to be with you?
If I were you, I would just love me

Next time. I chuckled over that way. It sounds so nice, isn't it? Yeah, next time. I hope it never come. I was living in a perfect nightmare and never plan to step my foot out of it. Yet, just because of him, I was forcefully pulled out. I was force to face the truth that you are now someone's else lover.

It make it clear to me that between me and you is nothing except friendship. Not anything more nor anything less. It's just a bond between friend that I could never pass.

I'm falling down endlessly
I'm afraid of everything that surrounds me
When you fall in love
You get happy, who says that?
My love is far back from mе

In my beautiful nightmare, you are mine. You are there to be claimed as mine. You are there to shine like how I would like you to. You are there just for me. No one else could touch you, hear you, you are tied down for me.

Why did I call it as nightmare when it's so beautiful? Cause I know one thing for sure. You will never be mine. You are way too far for me to reach. But I refuse to believe that even if I had known it.

If it were you, how would it be?
If thosе tough days became yours
If I were you, I would just love me

All those times that we spent together. All those secrets, all those whispers, jokes, all of them that used to be brightening my day is now gone.

From the first time you introduced me to your boyfriend, I was done for. I know at the moment, I held his hands, I can no longer live in my beautiful nightmare.

You already answered me, I know
The meaning of the unanswered answers
Even though I know everything
I pretend I don't

I'm glad that you never know these feeling I held for you. I'm glad that you never know how much I desired to tie you down and kept you just for me. I'm glad you never know how much I suffer to stay rational since I don't want you to hate me.

This should be the best. I'll try my best in believing that. I'll try my best to believe in the fact that you are someone's lover now. Yeah, this is the best for both of us.

Do you know how I'm doing these day?
It's hard to fall asleep
I can't swallow anything
When I look at you
I get hurt even more day by day, don't you know?
Even if it's like I'm dying
Even if you'll never be with me
Even if I know you're looking for others
I still can't let you go, I guess

Thank you for never knowing my pain. Thank you for always keeping that beautiful smile shine brightly. Thank you for sharing your problems with me. Thank you for waking me up from my beautiful nightmare. Thank you for everything.

I'll do my best in distancing myself starting today. I'll do my best in keeping myself awake with the fact. Please. I beg you. Please never go through what I feel. It hurts too much for you to handle. I hope that you will always be happy and far away from those cruel feelings.