STRAY KIDS one shots 2

Should've Held On (🎶)

SINGER : ASTRO

ALBUM : WINTER DREAM

RELEASED DATE : FEBRUARY 22 2017

Jeongin p.o.v

Should’ve held on
Should’ve held on
I miss you, my heart aches
It was a snowy winter night, oh no
I couldn’t do anything
You don’t cry cry cry
My turning heart is aching, yeah

Our relationship started with a contract. It was stated there. None of us should fall in love with each other. None of us should care for the others. We are nothing but a tool for our parents to keep their company in check. Our marriage are nothing but an agreement based on a piece of paper.

I used to look down on you. You used to be one of the girls that passed in front of me. You used to be the girl that I don't bat an eyelash to. You used to be someone who I won't even cared bout. You used to be nothing for me.

You say you understand me but you’re turning around
You’re not even shedding tears
I hate you so much
Whenever I think about that
I hate you so much
But I keep thinking about you
I should’ve held on, should’ve held onto you
I’ll understand even your greed, come back
I wasn’t good enough to handle you
So now I finally realize why you left

Yeah, that's what you used to be. I thought that once the contract ended, we will both walk back on own way. We won't even greet each other when we meet in the future. We will erase everything about each other as soon as the contract ended.

But, why? Why did I keep thinking that you will still be here even after the contact have ended? Why did I keep on wishing that you will be there? Why did I keep on walking towards your company? Why did I keep on waiting for your calls?

Alright girl, we used to talk all night
We fell asleep together
I bought you medicine when you were sick
I texted you to meet you in front of your house
I can only feel better if you’re not sick baby
When I pass by places I used to go with you
I just stand there, quietly
When memories of you pass like a film
I miss you even more, sadly

Y/n: I'm going to be late today. Don't wait for me.

Y/n: What do you wanna have for dinner? I'm gonna buy it on my way home.

Y/n: How's your leg? Is it better?

Y/n: Your package have arrived. What did you buy again?

I never thought that I'll miss those texts this much. I keep on glancing on my phone hoping that it will ring with your name on the screen. Why? Why do you make me fall for you? Or am I that easy?

It was like that rainy scene
From the movie we last watched together, oh no
You said goodbye with a stony face
Never say goodbye
I can’t believe it, it hurts, yeah

I was seated on our sofa that time when you come home all drenched from rain. You apologize to me over and over for wetting my jacket even when you are that drench.

Jeongin*sigh* Go and clean yourself first. You will catch a cold soon.

Jeongin: It's fine. My jacket will be dry soon.

Jeongin: I can eat ramen later. No need to worry.

On my way back
Memories of us together float up like a movie
When I think about that, I feel like such a fool
Tears keep falling
I should’ve held on, should’ve held onto you
I’ll understand even your greed, come back
I wasn’t good enough to handle you
So now I finally realize why you left

Why? Why did you care for me that much? Caring for each other was not written in the contract. You won't gain anything with caring for me. Then, why? Why you care for me when you won't get any benefit?

Is this what you have in mind when you care for me? The me who can't get a peaceful sleep after we walk our different way. The me who keep on thinking about you. The me who miss everything about you. The me who buy all your favourites food when I know you won't be there to eat it.

The small present you gave me
Is that everything about me has changed
I couldn’t even say my last goodbye
If I have one more chance
Baby please take my hand
I should’ve held on, should’ve held onto you
I’ll understand even your greed, come back
I wasn’t good enough to handle you
So now I finally realize why you left

I should've told you sooner. I should've confessed sooner. I should've held on to you tightly.

Jeongin:*whisper* I miss you.

Whisper and whisper come out of my lips. But, who will hear it? Even if I scream at the top of my lungs, how regretful I feel, you won't be here to listen to it.

(I should’ve held on)
Where did it go wrong? Our goodbye
(Should’ve held onto you)
When did this break up start? From our love
(I should’ve held on)
When did love start? From our destiny
(Should’ve held onto you)
Where does this destiny stop? From our love

I'm sorry for all my actions that have hurt you. I'm sorry for all those texts and calls that you sent for me and I rejected it. I'm sorry for letting you go so easily. I'm sorry for not caring for you the way you care for me.