STRAY KIDS one shots 2

Wish You Back (🎶)

SINGER : HAN - STRAY KIDS

ALBUM : SKZ RECORD

RELEASED DATE : 24 APRIL 2021

Jisung p.o.v

You were my story
Your word comes to mind endlessly
Just by being able to look at it
Like a photo that will be engraved deeply in my heart
I'll gather my memories one by one
And cherish them in my heart
Your scent became the wind and flew far away
I'll remember it forever

I still remember it. I remember it clearly.

Y/n: Don't forget to eat Sung-ah.

Y/n:*sigh* How many times have I told you to put your laundry on the laundry box?

Y/n: What time will you come back?

Y/n: Have you eat your vitamins?

Y/n: Don't forget to wash the dishes kay?

Those nagging of yours. Those things you told me for my own best. Those things you remind me for my own life.

Because you're on my mind more today
My vision is slowly getting blurry
After a long time passes
I wonder if you'll gradually fade away from my mind
I still remembеr your warm touch
Put your small hands together and look back
In the days whеn every moment was beautiful and splendid
You were the main character in the movie called me
Yeah still rolling, you keep coming to my mind
Meaningless tears flow and keep holding me behind
I've been travelin' around the world
Guess what, even though I purposely try
To fill my mind with other thoughts
I can't get rid of it, it gets caught

I keep on glancing to my phone hoping it will light up with your name that I saved as 'My Cheesecake'.

Text~

Jisung: I finally finished my track!

Jisung: You won't believe it that even pd-nim praise me for it!

Jisung: I think something hit Minho's hyung head since he bought me ice americano even without me asking for it.

I keep on fidgeting with my phone wanting it to ring with your name on it. I smile by myself whenever I look at the picture I put as my lock screen. The picture of us.

You were my story
Your word comes to mind endlessly
Just by being able to look at it
Like a photo that will be engraved deeply in my heart
I'll gather my memories one by one
And cherish them in my heart
Your scent became the wind and flew far away
I'll remember it forever

I keep on scrolling through our past chats. Hoping for it to ease these emptiness I feel. Hoping for it to make me forget about these painful truth I'm battling with.

I come to our pictures that were taken on our beach date. You were eating the ice cream you win from our little game happily with me pouting beside you wanting to have a bite for it. You giggled a lot that day.

Yeah, I remember it clearly. I remember every second with you clearly.

I'll wish you back
I'll wish you back
I'll wish you back
Sometimes I'm gonna get hurt
But I'll call you until you come back
Let's go back to those times, our day, day
To how it was, turn everything back, back, back

Remember the promises we made? Where we promise to be there when we are in our lowest, that we are going to be there for each other no matter what happened, that we are going to have eyes only for each other? Remember that?

I do. I remember it. I know how I teased you about it back then yet I'm the one who sob over those every single nights. Who keep it close to me even when I try to sleep my thoughts away.

Do you remember them? Those promises we made?

If anything can come back just by missing it, I don't know
It's not easy to explain how I feel
I sit in a room all day long and turn off the light
Don't bother asking if I'm okay
This feeling won't go away by such words
Watering a withered flower won't make it bloom again
Even the pinky finger that made the promise not to be defeated
All disappeared and crumbled after your goodbye

HanQuokka is seated on its bed that you made from the box it came with. You told me how much you cherished him as it resembles me a lot. You said that it's our child. I remember how I laugh so hard from your cuteness that day.

He used to always be on your laps. You will never forget to bring him anywhere with you making me jealous of my own skzoo character. I remember how you tell him about how your day went, how much you miss me, how much you want me to spent a day with you, I remember it.

But, why do you leave him alone now? Why do you leave HanQuokka that you once claimed as your son alone, seated in the corner, looking pitifully at me every time I sob over you.

You were my story
Your word comes to mind endlessly
Just by being able to look at it
Like a photo that will be engraved deeply in my heart
I'll gather my memories one by one
And cherish them in my heart
Your scent became the wind and flew far away
I'll remember it forever

They said that the good one will be taken first. Does that mean I'm not good enough for Him to take me too? Why did He only take you away? Why?

Chan hyung said that just how the world works. That's just how time works. I know that you'll leave me one day but my selfish self can't believe it.

I can't believe it. I refuse to believe it. Even if my mind scream the fact to me every night, my heart can't handle the truth.

I'll wish you back
I just want you to stay with me all day
All day, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah
So baby, love me again if it's okay
It's okay

I still search for you. I search for you from the moment I open my eyes. I search for you every time I want to close my eyes. I search for you everytime I cry.

Your warmth. Your kisses. Your holds. Your hugs. Your cuddles. Your cooking. Your jokes. Your playfulness. Your nagging. Your pouts. Your loving gazes.

I miss you. I miss you badly. Do you know how bad I miss you? Do you have any idea how much I suffer without you? Do you know even a little about it?!

I'll wish you back
I'll wish you back
I'll wish you back
Sometimes I'm gonna get hurt
But I'll call you until you come back
Let's go back to those times, our day, day
To how it was, turn everything back, back, back

I want you. I want you back. I know that crying for you every night won't bring you back to me. But I want you. I know I'm selfish. But I miss you a lot.

Jisung:*crying* Where are you y/n? Where are you?!

Jisung:*crying* You told me you love me! Where are you?!

Jisung:*crying* You leave me alone! You leave me alone. Y-you leave me.

I'll wish you back
Yeah, I'm waitin' on you, still waiting on you
Perhaps I already know that you won't come
I'll wish you back
As I look at the faded picture of you and me
I can't help but be filled with regret
I'll wish you back
I want to end the endless darkness
And see your bright smile again
I'll wish you back
Waitin' on you, still waiting
Waitin' on you, I'm still waiting on you
 
It's hard. It's hard to take a step without you beside me. I don't have the confidence. I don't have any of it. I need you. I need you right beside me.

Will you be there to guide me? Will you be there when I fall down? Will you be there to wipe my tears? I know I'll never get any answer from it but I believe that you will be there for me. Right?