STRAY KIDS one shots 2

Don't Hide It Any Longer

Jisung p.o.v

Jisung: Hey.
Y/n:*excited* Sung!
Jisung:*weak smile* I'm home bub.
Y/n:*hug Jisung* Welcome home.
Jisung:*chuckle* Are you sure you wanna hug me now?
Y/n: Why should I not?
Jisung: I just got back from practice and I'm all sweaty for sure.
Y/n:*nuzzle onto Jisung* I don't care.
Jisung: If you say so.
Y/n: Will you have your dinner first?
Jisung: You cooked?
Y/n:*nod* I try cooking a new menu today.
Jisung: Hm, would it be okay if I take a shower first?
Y/n: Sure! I'll be in the kitchen waiting.
Jisung: Thanks bub.
Y/n:*push Jisung gently* Now, now, go and take a bath Sung.
Jisung:*chuckle* Alright.

I stripped off my dirty training outfit and step into the shower box. I set the temperature to my liking before letting a big sigh. I could feel my muscles relax under the warm water and the feeling of secure pass by, pushing my tiredness away. Today has been long for me. I started my day with perfecting my newest song arrangement, continuing with group's dance practice, and ending it up with writing some lyrics.

Jisung:*mumble* Why did I feel so tired?

Y/n: Sung? You done?
Jisung:*shout* Almost!

Jisung: I should feel better later.

I stepped outside the shower box, feeling somewhat better than just now, but there are still some uneasy feeling linger around me. I picked out my comfortable outfit, put it on, before walking out of the room to meet y/n in the kitchen.

Jisung:*smile* Hey bub.
Y/n: Sung!
Jisung: Done cooking?
Y/n:*nod* Let's eat?
Jisung: Alright.

Y/n: How's your day?
Jisung:*shrugged* Pretty good I could say.
Y/n: You guys are practicing for the next week show right?
Jisung:*nod* It sure is tiring.
Y/n: But in the same time exciting?
Jisung: Yep!
Y/n: How's about your composing?
Jisung: It's not complete yet.
Y/n: Oh?
Jisung: It should take around one two weeks again.
Y/n:*careful* Sung, wanna share?
Jisung: About what bub?
Y/n: You know *worried* everything?
Jisung:*smile* I'm okay bub, I really am.
Y/n: If you say so.
Jisung: I'm fin-
Y/n:*softly* I'll listen to you when you need me kay?
Jisung: I know.

Y/n: Go and take a rest first Sung.
Jisung: Let me help you wit-
Y/n: Just go and take a rest. I'll join you soon.
Jisung:*smile* Be quick kay?
Y/n:*wink* Will try to.

As I stepped inside our room, I throw myself on the soft bad place in the middle. Letting out the biggest sigh from the day as I burry my face deeper to the poor pillow.

Jisung:*mumble* I wanna share with y/n.

Jisung:*mumble* Yet I don't know what to share.

There's something in me telling me to share with y/n but I don't know what to share. I really want to share. I want to let go off this suffocating feeling inside. But how? How should let this feeling go?

Y/n: Sung?
Jisung: Here.
Y/n: Wanna do something?
Jisung: You wanna do something bub?
Y/n: Not me *smile* you.

Jisung: Should we take some rest then?
Y/n: Cuddle?
Jisung:*nod* Cuddle. Come here bub.
Y/n: Gladly will.
Jisung:*hug y/n* Have I told you how much I love you?
Y/n: You have, everyday.
Jisung:*sigh* I need to say that every seconds passed actually.
Y/n: I love you Sung.
Jisung:*kiss y/n's forehead* Love you. I really do.

Author p.o.v

Jisung made sure that y/n is safe and secure in his arms before he drift off to the deep slumber he had missed. He sleep so peacefully that he gonna miss every movements from his partner. On the other hand, y/n is not falling asleep, not even feeling sleepy at all. She carefully fix her position, making her sit a little higher than the one who is sleeping with light snore coming out.

She knows that he is stressed out even when he hasn't admit any. She realised it when he stepped inside the house. He sure did give her a smile but it's an empty smile. She can't feel the warmth and love radiates from it, like how it used to radiate.

She knows well that her boyfriend always trying to hide things from her as his way to assure her that everything gonna be fine. He will let everything bottled up and gonna explode once he can't held it in any longer. She is trying to tell him that she will be just fine even when he cling and whine on her about his tiring day.

Y/n:*mumble* I wish you would open yourself a little bit more.

Y/n:*whisper* I'm always here Sung. Even when the world turn it's back on you.

Y/n:*mumble* Can't you believe in me Sung?

Her hands softly caress his cheeks as she has the smile she never want to show her boyfriend display. The smile that contains sadness as she thought about how much he struggle to keep his worries away from her. Just to make sure she is always okay, he carried all those heavy burden with him everywhere he goes.

Jisung: What with that smile bub?
Y/n:*surprise* Sung? You're awake?
Jisung:*smile* I am.
Y/n: Since whe-
Jisung: I heard everything.

He seated himself in front of y/n as he lets his hands wander till they reach and cup her cheeks. He softly put their foreheads together and close his eyes. He wants to let y/n know, that he is okay even if she cry on him. He listened to everything she mumbled.

Jisung: I'm sorry that I made you feel that way.
Y/n: N-no-
Jisung: I trust you bub, I really do.
Y/n:*whimper* Then why?
Jisung: I'm sorry for keeping everything away from you.
Y/n:*whimper* Why did you keep all your problems to yourself Sung-ah?
Jisung: I'm sorry.
Y/n: I wanna help!
Jisung: I know.
Y/n: I want to be your safe place!
Jisung: You are my safe place.
Y/n:*sob* Why can't you share it with me?
Jisung: I'm sorry.
Y/n: Why can't you believe me Sung?
Jisung: I just never want to worry you.
Y/n: But it pains me more! It pains me more to see you suffer alone Sung-ah!

She lets tears of anger and frustration out as she confessed everything she wanted to told him. Jisung just keep on keeping his eyes close and repeating the same phrase.

"I'm sorry"

He repeats that again and again but still keeping his eyes close. He know can't bear the sight of her crying this painfully in front of him. He hates the sight of her crying of him. He never want that. His heart break the moment he heard her's whimper.

Y/n: Look at me please.
Jisung:*shake his head* I can't.
Y/n: Look at me Sung.
Jisung: I'm sorry.
Y/n:*beg* Sung, please.

Her hands softly raise his chin up to face her. She again, beg him to open his eyes, and when he did, her heart breaks. He has been holding in his tears and all of them fell the moment he open his eyes to meet her swollen eyes.

Jisung: I'm sorry that I made you cry.
Y/n: Sung, can you tell me honestly what you are feeling?
Jisung: I-
Y/n: I want to be your safe place. I want to be someone who you could share your burden with. Please?
Jisung: I trust you y/n. I really do. But it's jus-
Y/n: What is it Sung?
Jisung:*sob* I no wanna worry you any longer! I want to be someone who you could rely on and not someone who worries you more!
Y/n:*smile* You are someone who I could rely on Sung-ah. And sharing your problems with me, is not worrying me. I can sure of that.

She softly says all of the words she has kept inside to him who still has his face inside the warm palm of hers. He listen to every single words she said. He listens to every plead she made and every confession.

At the end, he shared how he truly feels with her. He shared everything that has been bottled up inside. He shares those all honestly even when his heart keep on aching with every word that came out.

Y/n: Sung, don't hide any of your problems from me again okay?
Jisung:*nod* I'll try.
Y/n: I'll always be here for you.
Jisung: I know.
Y/n: I'll be your place to lean on.
Jisung: I know.
Y/n: And I'll help you carry your heavy burden with you along.