STRAY KIDS one shots 2

Star Lost (🎶)

SINGER : STRAY KIDS

ALBUM : NO EASY

RELEASED DATE : AUGUST 23 2021

Author p.o.v

Darkness is settling in day by day
Inside of me, I've lost my greed
The feeling of being left alone swallows me up
Even if I live a calm life as if nothing has happened at all
I live it in fear that I'll be left alone

The one who prefer to listen rather than talk sure has a hard time sharing his feelings to others. He always likes to listen but never once to talk. He loves to help but dislike to be helped.

He does trust them. He does love them. However, that doesn't make him able to share his feelings. His true one.

Yeah, they say, "You better be alone, it hurts"
In this place without you
There are questions flying in the air
And the dirty feeling of being empty
I hope someday this emptiness is filled
Just tell me whеre you are, I'll be thеre shortly
I won't be as far away from you as you think

He was often found sitting in the corner of the room away from others who chatters happily. Even their loud cheers and shouts seem distant to him every once in awhile. He was sat there, looking blankly at the air in front of him.

Everyone knows that he has a hard time sharing but none of them want to force him out of his comfort zone without his consent. They know how hard it is to step out of it, they want to help yet they don't know how.

I imagine you in the night sky
You comforting me somewhere
Don't matter, even if I lose everything right now
I'd endure it by thinking of you
I'll go anywhere
Today, too, trippin', I'm trippin', I'm trippin'
I'm looking for your light
When I look at my reflection in the mirror
I feel like I'm lost, stuck in the dark
Wandering in the deep fog
I'm star lost

Chan:*worried* Innie.
Felix:*sigh* He is drifting away again.
Jisung: He seems gloomier than yesterday.
Hyunjin:*worried* He sure has a hard time to share.
Felix: But-
Jisung: Hm?
Felix:*frown* He is still smiling.
Hyunjin:*sadly smile* That's the most heartbreaking part.

Minho: Innie? Jeongin-ah?
Jeongin:*startled* Y-ye-yeah hyung?
Changbin: You good Innie?
Jeongin: I am hyung.
Minho: You sure?
Jeongin:*nod* Yep!
Changbin:*sigh* Be honest please Innie.
Jeongin:*smile* I am really okay hyung.

I even miss you in my dreams, I keep looking for you
I was wandering on the road and yet again end up going back to the same place
I come and go, reset, when I open my eyes, play back
I'm dizzy, crazy, even if I'm afraid, keep playing

Another smile was there, displayed freely for everyone to see and enjoy. Another smile that is made with struggle to make sure it looks as real as it could. He, somehow, makes his own mask of happiness that he displayed every time he can't seems to smile.

That mask is tightly glued to his face that he can't even stop smiling when he is tired. Even when the world come crushing down, he probably would keep that mask on.

I hold tight onto my shaking heart
I can't stop it, can't stop
I keep spacing out at the thought of you
The earth is round
No matter where you are
I believe I'll find you
I won't look back

Tears are there on his eyes. They are there yet none of them fall. Not even a single tear rolled down his cheeks. He blinked those away as if it's nothing. So easily as if it's not the first time he blinked those away.

Jeongin:*mumble* Why am I crying?

Jeongin:*mumble* Don't be foolish Jeongin!

I imagine you in the night sky
You comforting me somewhere
Don't matter, even if I lose everything right now
I'd endure it by thinking of you
I'll go anywhere
Today, too, trippin', I'm trippin', I'm trippin'
I'm looking for your light
When I look at my reflection in the mirror
I feel like I'm lost, stuck in the dark
Wandering in the deep fog
I'm star lost

Chan: Innie?
Jeongin: Yes hyung?
Chan:*smile* Have any free time?
Jeongin: Yeah?
Chan: Let's talk?
Jeongin: Sure, what is it hyung?
Chan: Innie?
Jeongin:*confused* Hm?
Chan: You know how much I care for you right?

He is stunned. He froze on his place and his face turn to a shock one.

Oh, oh, oh, oh (Oh-ayy-oh-ayy)
Oh, oh, oh, oh (Oh-ayy-oh-ayy)
All of my senses (Oh-oh, oh-oh)
Are determined to (Oh-oh, oh-oh)
Follow you, all out (Oh-oh, ayy-oh)
'Cause trust me, I'll be with you, star lost

Jeongin:*startled* W-wha-what is it hyung?

Minho:*appear* We care for you Innie.
Hyunjin:*smile* We are here for you.
Seungmin: We won't leave you, no matter what.
Felix:*softly* You can lean on us every time you need us Innie-ah.
Changbin:*warmly* We are your safe place and will always be.
Jisung: You can come to us whenever you need to.
Chan: You know Innie, we desperately want to help you, will you let us?

He doesn't know what to say nor do any longer.

Today, too, trippin', I'm trippin', I'm trippin' (Oh, yeah)
I'm looking for your light
When I look at my reflection in the mirror (When I look at my reflection in the mirror)
I feel like I'm lost, stuck in the dark (Stuck in the dark)
Wandering in the deep fog (Ah)

One by one start to surround him leaving him no escape no matter how hard he tried. They softly lay their hands on the trembling boy's shoulder. They still have their warmest smile display for the youngest to be sure of them.

His head spins like crazy. He always know how to escape even the most difficult situation, but not this one. His head spins and his mind tells him to give in but he doesn't want to give in yet, not now, he thought.

You got me feeling star lost, star lost (Hoo-hoo)
Yeah, I'll be star lost, star lost (Hoo-hoo)
Fe-feeling star lost, star lost (Hoo-hoo)
Yeah, I'll be star lost, star lost
You got me feeling star lost, star lost (Hoo-hoo)
Yeah, I'll be star lost, star lost (Hoo-hoo)
Fe-feeling star lost, star lost (Hoo-hoo)
Yeah, I'll be star lost, star lost
I'm star lost

He doesn't even realize it but his eyesight are now blurring and he is still too stunned to even wipe those escaped ones. He can't even keep his lips shut any longer. He trembles before he falls to his knee letting his worried and relieve hyungs take care of him. He lets no protest out as he finally gives in.

Jeongin:*sob* Hyung!