STRAY KIDS one shots 2

19 (🎶)

SINGER : STRAY KIDS

ALBUM : CLE 1 : MIROH

RELEASED DATE : MARCH 29 2019

Jisung p.o.v

It's too fast
I've waited for this moment, what about you?
Are you a little scared? Or are you excited?
To be honest, it hurts to send you away
Every time the day went by slowly
I prayed for it to pass by quickly
But right not I feel the opposite
I'd like for this moment to stop for a little bit
Time don't stay here, go somewhere else
One, two, three, once again back to the 13
I became the singer that I wanted to become back then
I still can't believe it but I'm happy
I'm satisfied that my dream came with a lot of luck
But this moment that I've waited for even before I started to dream is here and
I just want to stop time
I'm still not ready
I'm waiting all the way over there
The 20 year old me is waiting

I've been waiting for this moment to come as far as I remember. I remember how jealous I am watching them who have reached the age of twenty, drinking outside with their friends and coming back home late.

Yeah, I'd always been waiting.

Why does this day feel like it's passing by so quickly
When I count to three
Can everything disappear like a dream
And I go back to where I was before
Back, back, back, back, back, back

I always told them, my friends and family, of how desperate I want to be an adult. I want to be an adult as soon as possible. I will freely talk about it with my eyes sparkling with curiosity. I really wanted to be an adult.

Yeah, wanted to.

Go back to before
Where everyday was the same, same, same, same, same, same
Same back then
If right now passes then it'll seem so far away
It'll feel like I won't be able to see the current me again
I just wanna go back
Back, back, back, back, back, back
Back to before

I used to peek on my parents just to see how their faces scrunched up in frustration. Their hands were gripping a paper so tightly that I was feeling scared of them. I thought that, I would understand what were happening to them when I have reached the age of twenty. And, maybe, I could help them be a little bit happier.

Not knowing that the view I saw is what my future self will gone through.

Now the way I talk has gotten more mature
It's a bit unfamiliar but I walk around like I'm confident
But I'm like a middle school student who's acting as an adult
I'm still immature and I just can't get used to it
The hours after 10pm that I've gotten close with
The signs that don't allow minors don't relate to me anymore
But my dad and mom still look at me like a kid
And strangely this is something I'm still used to
Pay attention how old are you now that you’re still asking for the impossible
Soon I'll have to take off my name tag as a teenager
This should be good enough
Continue on naturally, don't be uncomfortable
Everybody was like this too
Twenty years old that I wanted to become so badly
Did everybody go through this same experience or am I the only one
That's anxious?
Not even other people, but people close to me
Like my mom, dad, and brother
Did they spend this day like this too?

They keep on nagging at me. Telling me how late I had arrived back at home, even when it was only eleven out there. I really wanted to protest on why the adults are not being nagged on when they arrived home early in the morning. I was frustrated that time.

Since I didn't know any of the reasons they had.

Why does this day feel like it's passing by so quickly
When I count to three
Can everything disappear like a dream
And I go back to where I was before

A week. Just a week till my 20th birthday. The realization come hitting me the moment I saw my parents told me how proud they are watching me grow and reaching adulthood.

I'm not an adult though?

Back, back, back, back, back, back
Go back to before
Where everyday was the same, same, same, same, same, same
Same back then
If right now passes then it'll seem so far away
It'll feel like I won't be able to see the current me again
I just wanna go back
Back, back, back, back, back, back
Back to before

As I'm older now, though I'm not an adult yet, I realized how dumb I was. Protesting about their late home schedule, about the smallest problem that happened to me, bawling my eyes out every chances I got. I sure was a kid.

Can I refuse to be an adult?

This place that felt so awkward
Is now my home
Seoul that felt so big
Now seems small to me
The dream that I've been dreaming of has taken off
And when I look out the window, it's ready to land
The dream that I've been dreaming of has taken off
And when I look out the window, it's ready to land, yea

The moment the day come, I'll officially be an adult and I don't want it now. I used to be desperately waiting for it, but not now. I don't wanna be an adult. Can I stay like this?

I don't wanna know what is really happening in their world, the adulthood world.

This place that felt so awkward
This place that felt so awkward
This place that felt so big
This place that felt so big
This place that felt so awkward (yeah yeah yeah)
This place that felt so awkward
This place that felt so big (yeah yeah yeah yeah)

Jisung:*mumble* I'm twenty now.

Jisung:*mumble* I no longer can act childish.

Jisung:*mumble* I need to be responsible.

Jisung:*mumble* Yeah, that's what I should do.