STRAY KIDS one shots 2

It's Okay

Hyunjin p.o.v

I had taken the wrong choice, hadn't I? If only I hadn't take this path, maybe I'll be happy. Maybe I'll smile a lot brighter. Maybe I won't need to fake a smile. Maybe I won't cry alone here.

Hyunjin:*mumble* I'm tired.

But if I hadn't choose this path, I won't meet them. I won't meet them who are there for me. I know that I'm nothing but a burden for them. I have nothing except the looks just as how the others said. I have nothing. I can only be grateful because I have this looks.

Hyunjin:*mumble* Everything is useless now.

Rumors. All those are untrue. All of them are shared by those who hate me. Who am I? I'm only someone who they can hate freely on. No one will blame them. I know that deep down everyone is grateful because the rumours are spread with a lot of ease. I know everything.

Hyunjin:*mumble* Is it time for me? For me to give everything up?

I'm scare. I don't want to face them. They always welcome with warm hands but, in the other hand, I feel bad for receiving all those love. They give all those love and warmth to someone like me. Someone who doesn't deserve a bits of it.

Hyunjin:*mumble* What will happen if I said that I'm giving up?

Will they be happy? Will the group get more known? Will they receive the attention they deserve? What will happen, I wonder.

Hyunjin:*mumble* They will be a lot happier, right?

The sweet attention they gave me is not for someone like me. I'm taking the place of someone who really deserve those. Those sweet attention and care. I'm really such a burden.

Hyunjin:*mumble* Why can't I be better?

I hate it. Why can't I be better? Why can't I be happier? Why can't I have better self-love? Why can't I be confident? Why can't I accept myself?

Hyunjin:*shout* Why?!

Flashback~

Author p.o.v

Chan: Woah! Did you really make this track? By yourself?! I like it!

Minho: Hyunjin-ah, teach me the dance? You dance better than me! You should be the dance leader!

Changbin: Why are you so cuddly?! I can't get enough of your hugs!

Jisung: Hey baby! Your drawings are a masterpiece!

Felix: Jin-ah! I baked brownies, want some?

Seungmin: Do you have time? Want to practice together? I need help in some part. Help me?

Jeongin: Hyung! Jinnie hyung! I want to buy some necklaces, come with me? I'll buy you some too!

He remembered everything. The way his members called for him. The way they praised him, they give him suggestion, the way they show their love to him, the way they needed him.

Present~

Author p.o.v

He let out a loud shout as he falls deeper to the darkness he created himself. To the endless darkness filled by feelings of being a burden to others.

He can't handle it anymore. The feelings he is feeling is too much for him. He isn't aware of what he is doing again. He can't think straight. He continues letting out shouts and cries.

He doesn't know what he wants. He doesn't want to worried the others but he knows that by letting his feelings control him, they will get worried. He doesn't know anymore.