Black Veil Brides ~ one shots

Stars - Jake

Warning: self harm

You wake up in the middle of the night. It is 2.17 AM. Your boyfriend Jake turns around besides you. He murmurs your name in sleep. You feel his hand beside your head; it is searching for your arm in the dark. You feel his warm hand on your thin shoulder, the hand shake a bit. He is dreaming. You take his hand softly with your right hand and remove a tuft of his dark hair from his faces with the other hand. When you let the hair rest on his pillow, you feel a hot tear falling from his chin.

A dark cloud disappears, and the moon lights up the room. The light falls on the pink stars cut into your arm. Jake came home from tour last night, he doesn't know anything about the little stars, you cut into your arms, when he is away. You hold his hand in yours and cover the rest of your arm with the quilt. You fall asleep again but wake up just around a hour later. Half past three you sneak out of the bedroom and into the bathroom. You can't help it. You take the little blade and slowly cut an extra little star just about your wrist. You break down, when you see the red drops running down your hand. Later that night after the blood dried,  you find Jakes old hoodie and take it on. You go into the kitchen to make a cup of coffee.

The day goes with talking, fake smiles and stories from the tour. You wait for him to go to bed, and tell him you will be right there. You make sure he is asleep and drink another cup of coffee. Your eyes burn, when you think of his sad face, if he found out, about what you did last night. The only person you could imagine talking to is Jinxx. You go outside and call Jinxx. In ten minutes he is there with you. You tell him to be quiet, so Jake won't hear anything. You show Jinxx the scars. He looks out of the window short after. You spend most of the night explaining to him, why you did it and why you can't tell Jake. "Imagine his face if he knew" you say to him. You feel the first tear running down your face. He put his arm around you and tells you it will be okay. For a short moment you believe him.

"You never came" you hear Jakes sad voice behind you. Jinxx takes back his arm and looks out of the window. "Was he also here last night?" Jakes sad voice stays in your mind. You shake your head, knowing that he won't believe you. "It's not, what you think" you tell him. You stand between your boyfriend, thinking that you cheat on him and telling him the truth. Jinxx whispers something in your ear, but you don't get it. "You better tell him" he says a little louder, loud enough for Jake to hear it. "I already see it" Jake murmurs, but you know, he didn't get it right. The tears run down your face, and you can't see the two persons clear. You ask Jinxx to help you with the hoodie. Short after you feel the cold air from an open window touching the little stars up your arm. "I was just trying to help her" Jinxx murmurs and fall back into the couch. "Is that why you didn't come, and why you weren't there last night?" he asks with a thick voice. You nod and try to stop crying. "Why?" He asks, and you can see, he is fighting against the tears, as much as you are. "I don't know" you says, but you do. "I missed you" you try to explain. He holds his arms around you. "Was it just because I was away?" His voice is thick and confused. "Yes... I guess..." You say into his shirt. You begin to freeze, but you don't want to move. He murmurs something about sitting, and you go to sit beside of Jinxx. He hands you your hoodie and looks away from the pink lines on your arms.

Jinxx leave, and you sit down in the couch. "Why didn't you tell me?" Jake asks with a sad face. You look down and sigh. "I can't bear to see your face like that" you murmur quietly.  He lifts your head and gives you a little smile. "I will never leave you again, you are coming with me everywhere from now on" he says, and you smile. You sit in silence for a moment. "Can I ask you something?" Jake asks and takes your arm. "Why did you... cut stars?" he asks, and you smile at him. "I missed my super star, so I had to live with only small stars instead" you say and smile at him. He leans over and locks your lips together. It's a short kiss, but filled with passion and love.