Dear Friend,
I had been woken up early yesterday morning. We had been all taken separately because they didn’t want us sneaking around and getting in other peoples carriages. I am so worn out but I don’t have a choice anymore, I am wanted now and I can’t just go back even if I wanted too. We all met up later and I couldn’t help but think about Nathan anymore. I miss him and he told me he WOULD come back to get me but I left and I can’t turn back now. I sure hope he finds me when he can. I hope he is safe he is young and doesn’t deserve to have to go to war but he is going because this is something he believes in. He told me all of us were human beings and we don’t deserve to be treated so horribly. I admire him for fighting in this but I am disappointed in myself because I told him I would try to wait for him but I left. Now we will probably never see each other again. This is what hurts the most, that I don’t have any of my friends I can talk to about this and it’s being held all inside me and sometimes I feel like I’m just going to explode at some point. I wonder if anybody is wishing I was with them or if they could just truly care less anymore. I haven’t been feeling the same lately, maybe its guilt or sadness but it’s a horrible feeling to have around with you wherever you go, and it never leaves. I feel so bad for all the problems I have caused but not all of this was my fault. I just want my family back to the way it was, but in my heart, I know that will not ever happen.
Your Friend Always,
Anna
