Distant ✰djs✰

8

''no we aren't friends. we are brothers'' when these sentenced left adam's mouth, my eyes widened and my eyebrows raised up. ''what!?'' i basically shouted. ''shush'' he said placing the book in his hands on my mouth. i pushed that book to one side. 

''you are daniel seavey's brother?'' i whispered out with a tremor laced in my voice. ''yup. he is a brother from another mother'' he told me and took a hold of my hand. he started pulling me to the cafeteria section of the library which was in the 6th floor. we reached there in a few minutes by stairs. i was trying to process through  everything he said.

 great, i was speaking ill about a person to that that person's brother. i am such a dumbass. 

he made me sit not answering any of my confused expressions and took a seat facing me. the food court was pretty packed. people were cracking up and babbling over each other in whispers. 

''you didn't even mention once that he was brother'' i notified him of the reason for my surprise. ''well he doesn't even consider me as his brother'' ''why?'' i asked him sympathetically. ''daniel was just 3 years old when his father bought me and my mom to his house. his father kicked out daniel's mom and his mom never wanted to take responsibility for daniel so she left him out our father. daniel's father is really partial. he has always loved me more and has never been kind to daniel. so he thinks i am the reason his mom left him and his had is unjust to him. i wont blame him, we were just 3 when all this broke.'' he uttered. i heard out adam. i know how it feels like when your own mom doesn't want to have you. 

i felt bad for both of them. ''i am sorry'' i said humbly while placing my hand over adam's hand which was resting on the center of the table. he gave me a small smile. ''don't be so sorry for daniel though. it is no justification for him to get wasted'' he chuckled. honestly he wasn't wrong.  i felt a little relieved about actually knowing the situation now.

 we chatted for a while and headed to the books again looking for everything required for tomorrow's class.  we picked out a few books and a silent place to sit at. the library was pin-drop quiet. 

adam seemed pretty thoughtful. he helped me to make a lot of notes.  after sitting in the library for more than three hours we were tired. ''i think that should be enough'' i whispered while stretching a bit. he nodded. we both grabbed our stuff and headed out of the library. both of us were quite satisfied with the fact that our day was productive. we started walking back to the dorms. ''we have classes at 8:30 right?'' adam asked me in the middle.

 ''yes'' i answered. ''how about we meet before class? maybe coffee?'' he spoke again with a very hesitant tone. i looked up at him. ''ok'' i nodded and spoke. his face lit up with a bright smile.

 ''ok, then we can meet at 8:15?'' he let out. and i nodded again. we both got to the point where our ways parted. adam waved at me while disappearing into the hallways of the dorms. i started walking to my room. 

tomorrow was my first class and i was intrigued about it. i had been thinking and planning out this day for such a long time. it feels so good to see it now. 

i gto in front of my room. i removed my keys from the bag and inserted them in the keyhole, twisting it and opening the door. as soon as i got in, i saw daniel laying in the bed with a book in his hand. he looked at me for a millisecond and got back to the book. he was deeply involved in reading. its my first time seeing him go through something but his phone. i kept my bad on the edge of the bed and removed my shoes.

i slid them under the bed. i directly went  to the closet to change since i knew there was no point in arguing with daniel about the 'where to change clothes' crisis. i changed into my pajamas. it is always so damn hot in this closet.  i got out for the closet and sat on the bed. i felt such comfort. my back was aching from sitting straight up in the library for so many hours. daniel was concentrated and i just took short glances at him. i peeked up at him again and finally gave up the idea to speak because every time i  made an effort to make a conversation with him, it either turned embarrassing or rude.

''do you want to say something or will you just keep taking small glances of me?'' daniel unexpectedly spoke. i looked at him and he had already placed his book, upside down over his lap. he was directly looking at me staring into my should as always. great. 

now i have to say something. i started to fumble about what ot say and there was only one thing that popped into my mid. ''adam is your brother right?'' i uttered out and regretted it at the very next moment. why did i say that? i could have said something else. i felt so guilty about bringing up the topic. daniel didn't seem bothered by my questions. he sighed a little. ''step-brother'' he spoke, outputting stress on the word 'step' i just nodded. 

''i know you are friends with adam and don't you try to get in between us'' he rudely spoke again. it seemed as i'd he was warning me or something. he placed his book aside and got up from his bed starting to walk towards me. i felt a harsh thumping in my chest. i felt so anxious. he leaned over my bed being too damn close to me. ''you thought about something else this morning didn't you?'' he whispered out slowly looking into my eyes. i felt too weak to even reply to him. he was very close to me. 

i could feel his warm breathes on my lips. he looked down at my lips and then back into my eyes. a small proud smirk formed on his face and he leaned a little more.

 the bridge of our noses were now touching. a little move and he would kiss me. 

''i did mean something else'' he whispered again and my heart started to beat faster than ever. he leaned back and went towards his bed. he sat down going back to his reading like nothing happened. i took a deep breath which i was holding in and leaned back on my bed and faced the wall. 

i just laid in bed thinking about how i was supposed to spend a whole year with someone, who would not even speak properly with me but make me so nervous in just a span of seconds. i hope things will be good once the classes start tomorrow.