Jin POV
Its another day of namjoon by my side and constant overthinking. Over this past few days, i've been acting a little strange almost like tired and hopeless. I feel so off and tired that i dont have energy to talk to anyone.
I always overthink over something small and i cannot focus on anything.
I saw namjoon on the door heading to me.
"Jin, can we talk?" Namjoon said looking concerned.
"Uhh, ah yeah sure" i said on a very low tone.
"Are you okay? I've been seeing you lately so quiet and tired. Can you tell what's wrong?" He said grabbing my hands.
"Uhh, yeah im fine, don't worry about me." I said looking down.
"Please just tell, did i do something wrong? Or do you need something? Please tell me babe"
" I said im fine!..... I-Im sorry just.. im fine ok, don't worry about me." I said looking at the ground.
Namjoon looks at me so concern after i raised my voice.
"Ok babe, but please tell me if you have a problem, you know you can trust me and i can help you" Namjoon said walking towards the door.
Namjoon left leaving me alone in the room. So many thoughts are running in my head, i can't understand what's happening to me. Tears are rushing down my cheeks but no sounds are coming out of my mouth, i want to scream but i can't do it, i want to release all of my emotion but something is preventing me to do it. I want to share my problem but i can't do it because of one reason...i'm afraid. I'm afraid that they will judge me, im afraid that they will leave me, im afraid that they will not love me anymore.
I continue crying until i have no more tears left. I feel so...tired. I don't have the energy to do anything nor talk to anyone.
"Does he love me?"
"Do i deserve him?"
"What if im not the one?"
"What if they are right?"
"What if jisoo is the one for him?"
"What if im just ruining everything?"
"What if im the one to stay away?"
"What if i leave so namjoon can be happy?"
"What if i leave so namjoon can have a better life with someone else?"
"Can namjoon have a better life without me?"
"Can namjoon live without me?"
"Can i still live without you?"
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The Mafia's Maid (DISCONTINUED)
Fanfictiona boy who's name is seokjin that abused by his parent's because of his sexuality and ran out of their house and his finding a job to get a apartment to stay,until he find a job to be a maid of a mafia named kim namjoon. :Slow update
