The hate game

36

"We need to talk" my mum says from the door.

I roll my eyes "Yeah I know we need to talk, it's obviously why I came back home"

"I thought you said Dylan was just a friend"

"Yeah he was, now he's not." I say deadpan. I'm sure my parents are shocked at this side of me, can't blame them I'm shocked myself. I've never been rude to them but today has been totally different, first walking out on them now talking back at my mom, they must be shocked.

"What changed in a couple of hours??? Is it because of our decision to get a divorce? do you even know what you are doing? That boy is not good for you in anyway possible. He's probably the one who has taught you bad manners because before him you've never so much as disagreed with me talk more of shouting or walking out on me."

I can't believe my ears, I really can't believe what my mother is saying "Where's Dad?" I ask

"Are you ignoring me Ashley?" she asks incredulously, I start to walk away from her "Get back here young lady, I'm talking to you"

I whip around and face her "Just because I've never talked back at you doesn't mean I've never wanted to. A lot of times I've wanted to scream and rip my hair out, I've been so frustrated with you guys for so long. When Zayn died, I needed my family to be with me at that point in time but no you guys just went and buried yourselves in more work, you'd come home whenever you had business close to town, never ever to come see me, to ask after me and then the one time you come here for something other than business you drop this dreadful news on me. What were you expecting that you'd tell me the news and I'd just accept it in good faith uhn? Don't you think It's right for me to scream and shout and get angry at you. Did you ever asked how I coped with Zayn's death??? Did you?? You just assumed I was doing fine because Ashley never complains or say anything." I pause and look back, my Dad had already entered the room at some point

"My friends were the ones who stood with me, listened to me cry about how I felt, they were there instead of you. Did you know I blamed myself for their deaths? I was the reason they were coming back home that day. I blame myself yeah but I blame you guys more, if only you were at home they would still be alive. I felt bad for Dylan cause I felt like I took the person he loved the most, I let him lash at me if that was going to help him but that wasn't helping because we both had parents like you, we needed you but you weren't there. I've always envied Soph and the way her family is, they share all their moments together, how many moments have I shared with you guys uhn?? I found someone in my shoes, someone to share my moments with and then you come and tell me he's not good for me." I point at my mum "Tell me who's not good for me, you or him?"

Calming down a bit, I say "I came back home because I had decided to calm down and listen to whatever it is you both have to say, it's your lives by the way, I'm just your child. Go on with your divorce, i hope it makes you happy" I push past my father and climb up the stairs as fast as I can, slump on my bed and cry my heart out.

I woke up a while later with a pounding headache and a parched throat, I've done a lot of crying today than I've ever done in my entire life. I really shouldn't have exploded on my parents like that but I couldn't help it, I have to apologize. I pick my phone from the bed and see a lot of missed calls from practically everyone, I rub my eyes, I'll call them later for now I have to talk to my parents. I open my door and walk to the kitchen, once again I find my dad there just staring into space.

"Hey princess are you okay?" My dad asks

"Yeah I just need some water" I grab a bottle of water and look at my dad, he's watching me "I'm really sorry for today Dad, I didn't mean to, I was just really angry and all my pent up emotions just kept pouring out"

My Dad opens up his arms "Come here princess" he beckons and I walk into his arms, he wraps them around me and I place my head on his chest "I'm also princess, I'm sorry that we weren't there when you needed us, I promise that we love you and that we didn't mean to cause you so much pain. We knew how close you and Zayn were, we didn't know how to handle our grief and definitely did not know how to deal with yours either so we just buried ourselves in work and kept quiet about it, we thought you were doing fine but I guess we were wrong. Not talking about it destroyed our marriage but I don't want it to destroy our relationship with you. Your mother was just concerned, she thought you were making an irrational decision but I guess we were wrong again and I'll like to thank this young man for taking care of my princess when we were absent." He releases me then lowers himself "Give us another chance baby, we promise we'll try to get it right this time around. We might be divorced but you are still our child and we love you and we want the best for you, so give us another chance, don't hate us, we'll get it right this time around" I nod my head and my dad kisses my forehead muttering a thank you.

"Where's mum" I ask

"Oh well, she cried herself to sleep, I guess that's one thing you both have in common." I laugh and strode towards the stairs to go to my Mum's bedroom "She's in the living room" my dad shouts from the kitchen. I change course and indeed find my mother sprawled on the couch with tear stained face.

I sit beside her and gently shake her awake, when she opens her eyes I pull her into a hug "Ashley??"  "I'm sorry mom, I shouldn't have shouted at you" I say and her my mum sniffle at my back

"I'm the one who should be sorry, you had every right to yell at me, I haven't really been a good mother to you and I really love to change that" she pulls back and holds my face "You are my daughter and you are all I have left, I really don't want to lose you too. I'm really sorry honey and......."

"yeah I'm giving you a second chance" I cut her off and smile "I spoke to dad already"

She pulls me back into a hug "I love you, you know that right?" I nod "I know and I love you too"

Dad strides into the room "How about we go out to celebrte our second chances and your admission" We pull away from each other and sit back in the chair

"How about we just order Pizza and watch a movie together?" I say instead, my dad scowls and my mum  spring from the chair saying she gets to pick the movie which earns a groan from my dad "Hang in there old man. Order Pizza, I have so people to call" I pat my dad on the shoulder and bounce excitedly out of the room and up the stairs to call my friends before they appear at my doorstep asking questions.

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Another update guys. Finally the family is united and we are getting closer to the end, I think we just have one more chapter left. Let's get it going.

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