The hate game

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Dylan's POV

After the principal finished talking to us I stood up quickly and left the office, I know she will come after me, she'll try to talk to me and I didn't want to talk, if I talked I'll say what I'll regret. I walk faster and I turning round the bend in few seconds, that's when I hear my name "Dylan" I ignore her and increase my speed, the bells sound and I'm so grateful as I blend in with the crowd and leave her behind.

I walk towards my car and I sit there for a few minutes when she breezes past my car with that blond boy, I don't know what his name is but he looks like a fucking idiot. I think he's a new addition to their little group, he and Ashley seem to hang out more, I'm sure it's because those lovebirds won't keep their hands to themselves I shrug and start my car.

When I get home, I dump my bag in the living room, I'm alone as usual. I used to have company all the time 'My sister' sometimes with her annoying boyfriend, they piss me off big time.

The way Zayn obsesses over his sister that's why she died in the first place. They took her away from me, that's why I should avoid her. I shouldn't be feeling what I'm feeling now, I should hate her not fucking like her, why did I become her friend again, I think back and I remember when her found her diary, she wanted Ashley and I to get along that's why I decided to try. I dig through my clothes and find the red book, her diary, I couldn't finish reading it but I think I'll drown myself in her thoughts.

6/06/2016
We just moved here, I can tell that he doesn't like it and I hope for his sake we'll stay longer here. We are always moving and we never stay long, just when we start feeling comfortable wherever we are staying my parents decides it's time to leave. It is why I don't have so many friends. He is my brother incase you are wondering. As little as he is he acts so tough, he pushes everyone away including me. I guess that's his mechanism, his way of staying sane although I wish he'll talk to me more. Well that's all for today.

13/06/2016
I think I made a friend today. I like my new school, it's absolutely cool, no mean bitches they all seem nice although nobody spoke to me until today. A cute boy walked up to me and invited  me to his party, he said today is his birthday and I think we are friends. My brother has made friends tho, he's a freshman and it will be easier for him than me. I'll talk to you later, I have to get ready for the party, I'm so nervous gosh. Wish me luck.

I smile at her words, I remember that day she was all fidgety and I made her think I hated the way she behaved when I was just happy she's socialising. Thinking back I wish I had been more supportive. I flip through the pages and continue reading.

12/03/2018
He asked me out. Zayn finally asked me out, we've best friends for a while now although I developed feelings I didn't know he liked me too. I told him yes though and we've started dating. This is a special day for me, I'm so happy.......I just hope father won't want to leave again. I'll put that sad thought aside besides we've been living here for  2 years now that's the longest we've ever stayed somewhere. Dylan and Ashley still don't get along, we've tried taking them out with us several times but they don't talk to themselves. I would have loved it better if they connected especially now that Zayn and I are a couple (squeal) but I guess some things don't just work out, at least Dylan is happier. I can see it in the way he behaves, he's nicer to me even. I'll talk to you later. I have a date later.

20/11/2018
Today's my birthday, Zayn organised a surprise party for me. I love him so much, yes diary, I love him. It explains why he seemed distant throughout this week he was trying not to spill. Dylan came though although he didn't stay long I wonder why. I'm going to tell Zayn I love him tomorrow, I just hope it goes well, I know it's too soon but why waste time, I just hope I don't scare him away. Well I have to get some sleep I have a big day tomorrow. Oh I have a new teddy bear, Ashley gave it to me, she's so adorable I love her too I still wish Dylan will get along with her too.

16/11/2018
HE LOVES ME TOO. I finally told him and he loves me back, he gave me a promise ring too. I don't really have much to say but I'm so happy, I'll talk to you later, I have school tomorrow.

01/01/2019
Happy New year diary. Father says we are staying here forever, I'm so happy, I'll get to be with Zayn. This is final year too, Zayn and I think we should go to the same college then we can get married afterwards, I'm so happy. Bye diary.

11/06/2019
I'm sorry for neglecting you but I've been overwhelmed with filling forms, getting ready for finals and other stuffs. Next tomorrow is Zayn's birthday tho and I wanted to get him a game console, I know he's wanted it throughout the year  but I couldn't afford it so I bought him something else. I just hope he likes it. Bye diary.

13/06/2019
He loved it diary. I have to go we have a date later on. Lots of love diary.

Her words started to get fewer as time went, just glimpses of whatever happened to her and most of the time they were about Zayn. I think that's why I hated Ash so much cause my sister spent so much time with them than she did me but I guess it's also my fault. I move to the last page, the last thing she wrote before she died.

17/11/2019
We are going to the movies but we need someone to be with Ashley, she's sick but she wants us to go out, she's a sweet girl. She said she's fine but I'm not sure, I begged Dylan to come stay with her in case she needs anything but he refused and she insisted that she's fine. I have to go now. Bye diary.

She didn't know it was her last. If Ashley hadn't been too good, she could have made them stay back and watch over her, if I hadn't been too selfish and conceited too she would have been alive. I feel a tear drop on the book and I wipe my face, I looked around and notice everywhere's already dark. I get up from the floor and get into my bed drifting off to a restless sleep.

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I wake up the next morning with a slight headache and yesterday's events come rushing back, everywhere is freaking bright, I look at the time, it's 11 already. I get up from bed, run the shower and head downstairs. I need to clear my head, I grab a snack bar and head outside for a little walk.

I've walked for a little while and I find a clearing and it looks quiet, I sit down there and ruminate over everything I read yesterday. Today is the 14th, the anniversary of their date and her birthday is next week, this is all fucked up.

On a normal note, I would have made Ashley's life miserable but looking at it now, it wasn't exactly her fault. But I don't want to see or talk to her, she reminds me of my sister.

I feel someone sit beside and I see her sitting beside me, the last person I want to see and she starts talking, I look up at her and the look in her eyes make me angry at her and myself.

I stand up to leave this place, I don't know what she's doing here in the first place or how long I've been sitting here but I know it's long enough. She blocks my path and I look down at what she's wearing, who the fuck owns the clothes, I can feel a pinch in my heart and I snap at her, what I said I don't know but I know it's enough to keep her shut and out of my business.

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I updated guys. I said I was going to write in Dylan's POV and I did, hope you guys liked it. I know I've been updating sad chapters but everything can't be rainbows and sunshine every time right by the way what's a novel without feels, feel free to be sad or angry but please be patient, they will get over this and we'll be happy again.

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