LISA'S POV
I watched them as they walked down the hall disappearing and finally got up off the ground and headed to gym class, but when I looked at the clock I realized I only had 10 minutes before class was over so I decided to skip the rest of the time and go up to the rooftop
Once I got up there and sat down. I couldn't help, but think about the things Steven said
He is right, I could never like anyone, but why does it feel like I did something wrong when I agreed to what he said?
"Hey, wifey!" A voice said behind me. I turned around and saw Jennie standing there smiling
"What do you want, Jennie?" I asked annoyed that she interrupted my thinking
She walked over to me and sat down. "I looked everywhere for you because I worried something bad happened to you since you never showed up for PE," she said looking at me with furrowed brows, probably worried
She reached out to try and hold my hand, but I pulled mine away. She stared me in the eyes. "Why didn't you show up? Did something bad happen?" She asked again
"No, I just didn't feel like going" she looked at me and just nodded her head then looked out in front of her staring at the view
"So what do you think about Steven?" I asked
She laughed while looking at me. "Are you serious? You know I don't like him because of what he did my first day and he's an idiot"
"So are you," I said smirking
She smiled and nudge me. "Shut up," she said looking down at the ground and messing with the rocks. "So what made you bring him up?" She asked looking back at me, head titled
"I just heard rumors going around that he likes you and he is sorry for what he did"
She laughed again. "Well, it's too late for sorry. Besides I already like someone" she started leaning towards me to kiss me on the cheek, but I quickly leaned away
"About that Jennie. I don't like you" I whispered calmly
"I know you say that all the time, but deep down me and you know how you feel about me...us" she smiled. I also noticed how red her cheeks were getting
How do I feel? What does she mean?
She continued to lean toward me again to kiss me, but I stopped her once again. "No! Jennie, I meant it!" I snapped
She furrowed her brows in confusion. "What?"
I got up and turned and looked at her. "You have no idea how annoying it is to hear you say how much you like me and all that crap. Especially since I do NOT and will NEVER feel that way towards you" I said harshly
She got up and began walking toward me with her hands out trying to touch me. "Don't touch me!" I spat out. "See that's another thing I hate about you. You always so touch feels with me and it's annoying"
I noticed tears streaming down her face, but I just continued. "Why can't you just leave me the hell alone and bother someone else?! Can't you see I hate having you around?... well I guess you never noticed how uncomfortable it is for me since all you care about is filling up some lonely void in your life and to tell you the truth, that is pretty pathetic"
She stood there looking at me not saying anything as tears began flooding her eyes they quickly fell from her face
"Don't give me that crybaby crap. Grow up"
She looked away and quickly walked past me to head inside. I turned around to look at her. "I don't ever want to see or talk to you again," I said making her stop for a second, but she quickly walked inside the building
When she left I sat down in the same spot I was standing and tried to calm myself down, since my heart was racing like crazy
What did I do? Why did I do that?
I think remembered how hurt her eyes looked. It was like one second they were filled with life and the next it was destroyed. I felt a pain in my chest and something wet falling on my cheeks. I slowly lifted my hand and touched my wet cheeks and looked at my finger
This is new
I put my hand down and just looked at the view in front of me, while I sat there feeling like crap
I think this is what most people call heartbreak. Let me just tell you...it sucks, but I brought it upon myself
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