Hold Me Tight (Completed) ✔️

Chapter 43

It's been one year since I have arrived in Canada. One year away from my parents, from everything that was connected to my family, to him. I was in no way ready to forgive my father for what he did. I don't know how the others were able to forget and live past that. But I cannot even if I try I could not.

The one year later meeting with my parents were a disaster. They have returned back to India and we have not spoken to each other since. It's been a week since that incident.

If it was not for my siblings and Seokjin I would have eaten up myself with all these awful thoughts. Hannah was there too although she didn't know much about my family. Emily and I never really told anyone about our messed up history. Although Han knows about it here and there. Seokjin is in the corner too, he is the only one I have let in to see my tears.

"Hey Liz, what are you thinking?" A sweet voice was heard as I forced myself to open my eyes. I took in the calm summery breeze of the ocean letting the waves wash away my depressing thoughts.

"Seokjin, thank you for this. It's so beautiful in here." I looked at him gratefully. He bought me to a beach telling that it was our first anniversary. It was exactly on this day, one year before, we both met each other on the lounge outside the Director's office.

"Come on let's take a walk. I heard there is an ice cream shop over there." He pointed at somewhere far away which showed tiny dots of people crowded, which I suppose must be the stalls.

The cold water was somehow warm against my feet. The white pearl like sands comforting and calming.

As we walked I suddenly got conscious of the man beside me. The mere thought of him itself was raising my heart beat. How lucky am I to be able to meet such a beautiful person? He is such a good friend to me. Although I wish we were more than that. I am certain of my feelings towards him. But I am scared of letting my heart out and probably end up losing him. What if he sees me only as his student and now a friend? Would I be selfish if I let my feelings out and ruin whatever beautiful relationship we have now?

A soft warm hand pulled me from my spiral of disturbing thoughts. The small crease between my forehead vanishing immediately. My hands fit perfectly in his. It felt right, like it belonged there.

I stole a glance at his breathtakingly gorgeous side profile. And my eyes didn't miss the beautiful smile displayed on his plump lips. He was not looking at me but straight ahead. His eyes were shining and full of life.

Oh, how I wish I was the reason for his happiness? How I wish I could make him the happiest person alive? I would do anything if it gives me a reason to see his smile.

We reached the ice cream parlour and my heart was already mushy from all the butterflies that flew from the contact his hand made with mine.

The date was wonderful only because of the guy who is sitting on the driver's seat beside me. Yes date. That's what I am calling it. He doesn't need to know that, it will be my own little secret.

After the long ride we reached home and were already freezing from the cold night air. We were wearing light clothes and couldn't handle the current unexpected weather.

We both rushed inside and straight to the blanket lying on the couch.

"Mine." He grabbed one end of the blanket.

"No I reached here, so it's MINE." I tugged on to the other end.

"I'm older than you so it's M.I.N.E." He argued back.

"Yeah, so you should give up for the young one. Now be a good boy and gimme what's mine." I wiggled my brows teasingly.

"Gosh, let's stop this and act like what grown ups would do. We share?" He suggested.

We are grown ups, idiot. Wait what, SHARE?

"Yeah?" He asked again still not leaving the piece of cloth alone.

I woke up from the mind maze and nodded, it was a reasonable option and that too a heart fluttering one.

Without waiting any second we both snuggled up onto the blanket. His breath was uneven and forced just like mine. Was he nervous like me of this closeness? The heat emanating from his body was alluring. I had to control myself from snuggling onto his warm chest which is actually more comforting than the blanket.

After mindlessly staring at the random tv show we have been playing, he spoke up breaking the train of lethal thoughts in me.

"How about we set the hearth outside? We haven't used that in a while." He suggested glancing down at me. The sudden eye contact making the butterflies in my stomach wild.

I quickly nodded and looked down hiding the red in my cheeks.

After a few minutes work on the freezing cold for setting up the hearth we snuggled again on the same blanket. We could have just taken an another one, but we both didn't care. Strangely enjoying each other's closeness more than we should.

We were sitting in silence just enjoying each other's presence more than the heat from the fire. As for the next hour we were both on the edge of the hot tub dipping our legs against the warm water, fire still blazing behind us. The sweet melody of the 90's playing in the background made it look irresistibly romantic.

While swaying my legs to the rhythm I accidentally kicked his leg. He playfully nudged me back making me giggle. One push, one pull, another kick was all it took for us to start a war.

The music completely forgotten we were tickling each other like our lives depended on it. Being the sensitive person, even a shadow of his fingers near me can make me ticklish.

"Stop or I will bite you." I warned him still laughing like a maniac.

"Where?" He teased with an undeniably intimidating smirk on his face. My cheeks flushed red against the dim light of the fire as I pushed him into the pool.

But what was unexpected was him pulling me along with him. Both of us were drenched in the water from neck to toe, leaving a few strands of our hair damp.

Our laughs died down along with the beats of our heart at our immense proximity. The blood in my veins were boiling hot and my hands were trembling with tension. How will I survive this? How will I resist the man I love?

"Liz..." That's all he said before he leaned in closing the few inches between us.

His lips were soft and luscious. Perfectly connected with mine. It was hard to identify where mine ends and his began. I closed my eyes and savoured the wonderful feeling of ecstasy. That's exactly what I felt. His tongue brushed against my lower lip. Wanting more I opened my lips lightly giving him chance to explore each other more. His tongue collided with mine and the feeling was pure bliss. I couldn't keep up with his pace but I didn't want to let go of him anytime soon. One touch and I am already addicted.

We pulled away reluctantly to catch our breath. I was still dazed by what just happened. My lips still lingered in his touch and so does my heart.

"Jin" I spoke softly and unknowingly. He looked at me with eyes full of unsaid emotions, his lips plumper and red than ever.

"Say that again." He said his voice lower and deeper and that did wonders to my beating heart. His palm on my left cheek, drawing circles with his thumb.

"Jin, I love you." I mindlessly said entranced by his captivating eyes. With seconds I realised what I blurted out. I didn't want him to know it like this. But I don't think I ever will, if I hadn't said now. The lack of response from him made my heart go frenzy.

"Liz, I love you too. I love you so much that it hurts when I couldn't hold you whenever you needed me. I want to be with you for now and ever."

His eyes held mine and my heart too. The one place I was scared to let anyone explore, that I so willingly and longingly let Seokjin in. I am afraid not because of him evading in but of losing him. Losing someone is nothing I am new of and I am not ready to face it again.