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Can't Get Over Her (Jerrie)

(Perrie's pov)

It had been two months since The Breakup.

The breakup that tore my whole life apart.

I stared listlessly at the mug of hot coffee sitting on the table in front of me.

I had no makeup on, so my face was absolutely bare.

I was sure the dark circles under my eyes were all the more prominent now but I didn't care anymore.

There was no one to look pretty for now.

"Perrie, don't do this to yourself." Jade said, from across the table.

I looked up, feeling bitter inside.

I traced the outline of the woman in front of me with my eyes.

She was so neat, so clean, so perfect, so okay.

My polar opposite then.

"Do what?" I asked, like I didn't know.

"Torturing yourself like this. You deserve to be happy." She answered, without missing a beat.

"I can't be happy. Not anymore." I locked gazes with Jade. The familiar swell of sadness and want in my heart as I said in a broken whisper. "Not without you.

She just smiled sadly

"You know that can't happen."

"Can't." I leaned forward. "Or won't?"

"Both." Jade replied, her words ringing resolutely in the relatively quiet space of the cafe. 

"Do you still want me like I want you?" I asked, desperate.

Desperate for a love that didn't exist, that had been blown out like a flame, that had left behind broken shards of a future that would never happen.

Left me struggling, after a love gone too soon.

A chase that had no end.

Jade's only answer was to place a hand over mine.

"Perrie, what on earth are you doing?"

I looked up, ready to lash out at any intruder that had interrupted us. But my anger promptly disappeared when I saw Jesy's stern face, fingers gripping the handles of her bag so tightly that I could see her knuckles turn white.

"Jesy..."

"Perrie, we're going home." She grabbed my hand and pulled me up with an emotion I couldn't decipher.

"But Jade, she-"

"There's no one there." She looked at me, clearly upset. "You were talking to yourself again, Perrie.

I turned to look at Jade's seat.

It was empty.

All that was left was a lingering warmth on my hand and my cold cup of coffee.

"The cafe is off limits." Jesy decided, back at my house after she'd called Leigh and told her to come over because 'Perrie's being delusional again.'

"You can't do that!" I challenged.

"Yes I can." She said seriously. "Everyone knows that was yours and Jade's favorite date spot so no more going to the cafe. Not until you get over her."

"It's not like Jade's died Pez. Why are you still, mourning your relationship?" Leigh snipped.

I went to snap back at her but Jesy stepped in before either of us could start a fight. "Leigh, be quiet, now is not the time. Pez, no yelling at either of us, we're trying to help."

"You're not though." I stated, matter-of -factly, sitting down at the kitchen table, starting to pick absent-mindedly at my nails.

"Perrie!" Leigh-Anne groaned. "You broke up two bloody months ago and it was a mutual decision!" 

"Well if it wasn't already obvious it wasn't Leigh-Anne!" I yelled back, standing up abruptly. "I just said that, to make you and her happy!"

"Perrie Edwards!" Jesy raised her voice slightly but was still a lot quieter than me. "Stop yelling at us. And Leigh, stop winding her up, it's not helping." 

"Why aren't you mad at her?" I answered her back moodily, a bad idea. "You're mad at me but not Leigh."

She let out an exasperated sigh. "Perrie, stop acting like a child. I'm not mad at either of you. But at the end of the day Leigh wants to help you get over Jade, even if she doesn't show it." She glanced over at Leigh. "So if you could sit back down and actually listen to me, I'd appreciate it."

I slumped back in the chair and rolled my eyes. "Thank you." She gave me a pointed look before going back to what she'd been trying to say.

"The cafe...oh yeah and any of your other favorite places for dates. We can't have you hanging around them like a lovesick ghost Pezza." 

The pet name showed that this was all out of care, mutual care, but I just wasn't sure if I wanted to get over Jade. I knew they were worried but I preferred having Jade in my mind. A memory that I didn't want to get rid of. I could still love her then, couldn't I?

"Earth to Perrie? Perrie Louise Edwards!" Leigh suddenly shouted, slamming her hands on the table, and I looked up startled.

"Jesus Pez. Less of the 'deer caught in the headlights' look. Everything's fine." She laughed casually, perching herself on the end of the kitchen table.

"Well that would be easier if you didn't startle me like that! Leigh!" I answered, but we were more teasing now than actually arguing.

I noticed Jesy had left the room. "Hey, where's Jes gone?" I asked.

"Oh she just walked out. I assume she'll be back soon. This is about you and your relationship after all. You've been denying it for too long."

"Excuse me? Denying what?" I asked, slightly concerned, we were going back into quarreling over me and Jade territory. Me always defending Jade of course.

I saw a flash of alarm in her eyes and she stopped herself before she could reply. "Nothing..." she mumbled, she was probably under strict instructions from Jesy to not start anymore arguments with me.

 Aka the girl who just couldn't get over her ex!

 Who stupidly couldn't get over her ex who'd left her without a word spoken! Just left.

I knew what they were doing and that they were trying to help but it never felt like it. I didn't care if I was being delusional or 'going crazy' as I'd been told by multiple friends of mine.

Because in my delusions, Jade still loved me.

Jade was still Jade.

Still my Jade.

And I didn't want to let that go.

 I couldn't let it go.

Ever.

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Heyyyy! So this seems kinda unfinished to me but I don't really know where this was going.

I'll probably come back and rewrite it eventually.

It's just been there and I have something else I'm writing so here you go!

And it's yet another Jerrie break up story! (If you want fluff I have two fluffy ones but you shouldn't really look for fluffy Jerrie in my oneshots. There's some in one of my books but, do what you want!) now shameless self promo over please tell me what you think!

Otherwise hope you don't mind.

Anyway love you all and see you all soon! Mwah! ❤️