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I Have A Secret (Pesy)

(Perrie's pov)

I sighed as Jesy grabbed my hand again after I let go in fear of the cameras.

We'd had to make a deal with Jade and Leigh that if me and Jesy did anything too couply one of them would distract us so the cameras didn't get a photo and the fans didn't get suspicious.

And they did their job well. Jade taking Jesy's other hand and Leigh slipping an arm round my waist, pulling me away from Jesy.

I saw Jesy frown slightly and I wanted to hold her hand again but knew the risks it would bring so I leant into Leigh instead, even further away from Jesy.

(Later)

(Jesy's pov)

We were back at the hotel and I heard Perrie call "Babes?"

"Yeah?" I replied, walking out of the bathroom to join her where she was sitting on the bed.

"Lerrie is trending right now."

"So good news?" I say.

"Well it is if we plan to continue hiding!" She snaps, slightly harshly.

I try to reach for her but she moves away and I frown, hurt. "Pez I'm sorry, you know I didn't mean it like that."

"I know." She answers. "But:I'm fed up with hiding. I want to stop hiding when all you seem to want to do is keep messing around like this!" Her arms are crossed and she's glaring at me but I still take the opportunity to pull her into my arms. She lets out a soft sigh and melts again.

"I don't really want to but we don't have a choice Pez. I don't want to ruin my relationship with you."

She pulled her head from my shoulder and looked up, confused. "How could coming out ruin our relationship?"

"Because god knows what management would do if they found out. They'd make us split up or put us into publicized relationships with men. The girls are the only people who know for a reason Pez! I can't lose you."

She lay down and pulled me down next to her. "You wouldn't lose me." She said softly, tracing shapes up and down my arm.

"Would you ever trust me again after I went out with men just to hide our relationship? Be honest. I would lose you, even if not physically you'd never fully be there for me again."

She didn't reply, just pulled me into a hug. "Don't cry." She whispered.

"Didn't realize I was." I gave a small chuckle and pulled away, wiping my eyes.

"I just have one question." She asked, quietly.

I hummed in response.

"How did you know, that this is what would happen. Because it sounds like you're talking from experience babe."

"Lets just say that when I was with one of my exes I wasn't with him at all."

"Wait, you were with a girl?" She whispered, realization hitting her. 

I nodded and she squealed and pulled me into a hug.

"You didn't tell us though." She frowned indignantly. "Not even Jade?"

A small smile spread across my face as she looked like a  cute child.

"No, well we all know Jade would be overjoyed and would want you two to know. She'd keep inside LM but not outside of you two and let's be honest I knew about your feelings for me. Me and her were only a kind of fling and I didn't want to give you all that hope only for it all to be dashed when me and her inevitably broke up."

"Understandable, Jes, we aren't a 'fling' are we?" She asked, some fear in her eyes at her last statement."

"No, no of course not Pez." I quickly reassured her.

"Is this why you were barely with him for any time at all?" She teased, and I laughed. 

" I was never with him so yeah. Me and her lasted a few months at best."

" And why when any interviewers, asked how you were after the breakup with him, you were 'good.'"

I smiled, "Got it in one babes."

" How were you actually then?" She questioned, genuine care in her eyes and felt myself fall  even more in love with her. Should have known she'd check on me about that.

"I was fine, like I said, it was never going to last. By the way Pez,you're the only person who knows about this, so can you please not tell anyone. Not even the girls."

She nodded. "Is that what made you figure out that you-"

" Wanted to kiss women more than men." I nodded again, as I had done many times in the last ten minutes.

""That's a weight off my chest though." I sighed.

She raised an eyebrow. "In what way?"

"As you just found out, no-one else knows this Pez, it feels quite nice to tell someone about my realization process." I chuckled. 

"Would you mind telling me who it was?" She queried.

I made a face. "Just someone I knew, or used to. We didn't stay in contact after that."

"Oh." She was silent for a moment. "Do you miss her?"

"Not as a lover or whatever but as a friend, yeah, I do. I'm scared Perrie, that's why I don't want us to come out. I know me and her weren't serious but we were going to stay friends-"

"But that gets a little hard after doing 'that' with them?" She answered.

"Actually No. The management we were with found out and suddenly she hated me. So after the thing was over, she removed herself from my life in every way. You wouldn't be able to trust me and she obviously stopped trusting me, and then she left.  I don't want you to leave me."

She gave me a small smile. "I get it now."

"One day Pez. I promise." She curled up into me as I lay down again.

"One day." She replied, falling asleep against me not soon after.

One day, hopefully soon.

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Heyyy loves!

This is what an hour long drive does to me.

Is this too much Pesy? Because I personally believe there is no limit but do you wnat another ship?

Anyway hope you enjoyed. Love you all and see you soon! Mwah!❤️