Angel Wings

chapter 6

I'm against Nicole wearing makeup completely, so for the past few days I've been hiding it from her, today it pissed her off more than ever.
"Where is it?!" She begins to scream.
"I have no idea what you're talking about." I say pretending to be clueless.
"I know you his my fucking makeup now give it back!" She has the most annoyed, but adorable look on her little pale face.
I walk into my room and dig into my junk drawer "Here." I say simply.
"Thank you." She rolls her eyes and begins to walk away when I grab her arm and pull her into a hug. I do this when ever I can, even though she hates it and squirms around when I do.
"Shh, don't fight it," I stroke her hair and she gives up falling against my chest."Thank you." I say and she flips me the bird. I just pat her head and start listening to Fall Out Boy on my new phone Nicole got me because I kept taking hers.
Its been a week since I turned human and I felt really out of place, so many girls were flirting with me and guys hated me for it. People tried to talk to me but I was so awkward I think they just kind of gave up on me, and it didn't help I mumble my words. I'm so outcasted it makes Nicole feel better about herself. At lunch I sit with Nicole and her little group of friends, since my friends are their guardian angels. I asked Phil to find a way to make me an angel again, and he said he'll ask some of his higher up friends, but so far I've heard nothing. I miss being able to fly, it kills me I have to walk everywhere, sometimes I forget I can't fly and I'll end up tripping over my own feet.
"Here." Nicole says plainly walking into my room with an ancient laptop.
"What are you doing?" I ask a little scared of her intentions.
"Giving you my old laptop." She sets it on the desk in my room and begins setting it up.
"Why?"
"Well I figured you might want it."
"Um?"
"Relax, it was taking up space in my closet, so I decided to give it to you."
"Its not going exploded is it?"
"No, of course not!"
"Are you sure, because you've been pretty mad about me hiding your makeup lately."
"Yeah, well I get over things fast." She shrugged.
"Are you freaking kidding me? To seconds ago you were about to rip my bloody head off, now you're being all nice to me. Nah ah, no girlfriend, I don't believe you."
"Just take my damn laptop and get over yourself." She rolled her eyes.
I opened my mouth to say something but she just put her hand up to my mouth to shut me up.
"You know a kiss would work a lot better than your hand would." I said through her fingers and she shot my a glare of death then walked away. I walked to her room and jumped on her bed.
"What do you want?" She groaned.
"To hang out with you, is that too much to ask for?"
"Yes, now go away."
"No."
"Stop being the stubborn ass you are and go away."
"Why?"
She looked down at her hands in thought, I knew she wouldn't know what to say.
"Because, I, um," she trailed off.
"Haha, I knew you wouldn't know what to say."
"Ugh, fine." She said in defeat, which made me laugh.
"Now, since you don't know me as well as I know you ask me some questions, okay?"
"I'm not sure what to ask you."
"Just ask me anything."
"Okay, do, do," she sighs "Never mind."
"You know I won't judge you."
"Okay, do you really love me, or were you just saying that to stop me from committing suicide?"
I'm shocked she just asked me that, but knowing her it doesn't surprise me. She begins to cry so I open my arms for her and she jumps right into them. "Of course I love you, I don't want to love anyone else." I say as she hiccups into my shirt and I pull her onto the bed with me.
"Why?" She questioned through my chest.
"Because, you're personality is the most beautiful, colorful, creative thing I've ever seen, plus you are kind, gentle, quirky, and just overall amazing. I'm not afraid to tell you that I love you, because I've told you a thousand times before, I love you so much."
"How can you say you love me when I'm so terrible?"
"Because, I don't care about the bad, the good out shines the bad."
"You're stupid."
"And you're crazy," I say kissing her forehead. I felt her cheeks heat up as she stopped crying. "Is that all you wanted to ask?"
"Well, I don't know."
"Okay, so why don't we just talk?"
"Um, okay."
"So I heard you crying last night."
"Really?!"
"Yeah, why were you crying?"
"Um."
"Yeah, its okay."
"Its about Dan Anders."
"Yeah?" I felt a little anger boiling in me.
"Well, he likes one of my friends, and well she likes him too, and the only thing he would talk about last night was her."
"Oh, well you shouldn't cry over guys, guys are assholes, I should know I am one." This makes her gigle.
"Okay." She bites her lip.
We lay here in silence just cuddling, I know she doesn't like to talk. I'm stroking her hair when I hear her light breathing slow down and I know she's asleep. I stay there and I end up falling asleep with her.
I wake up an hour later and Nicole is in the bathroom taking a shower. I sigh and walk into my room, examining my new laptop. As soon as I start it up I her the water in the bathroom stopf.
"Of course a passw ord," I mutter to myself "And of course I can't remember what it is."
I walk over to Nicole's room and knock on the door "Nicole, are you decent? Can I come in?"
"Hold on just a second!" I hear her say through the door. Less than a minute later the door flings open and her lips are crashing against mine, I'm shocked at this. Of course I kiss her back, I love her.
She pulls away "Yeah what is it?"
"Okay you're really confusing me." I state bluntly.
"How?"
My eyes begin to widen "Okay, one second you hate me, and the next you're kissing me."
"Oh come on, you know I'm bipolar as all hell." She scoffs.
"So--" I begin but she cuts me off.
"Now I know that's not what you came her for, now what is it?" She asks raising an eyebrow.
"The laptop password."
"Okay." She says heading towards my room in just her robe
"Wait, wait,wait!" I exclaims flinging my arms in the air.
"What?!"
"Why are you just wearing a robe?!"
"Oh get over it," She sneers walking into my room putting in the password and connecting me to the WiFi before I can say anything more. "There you go." She says as she walks out of my room.
"Thank you!" I call to her.
"What ever!"
I get on the browser and start surfing the internet, looking for real answers about angels and their wings. So far no luck. It gets to about 10:30 and I groan, because I haven't found shit. 'I'll look at this in the morning.' I think to myself before getting in the shower and going to bed.
I wake up at about midnight and I walk to the kitchen to get a drink of water when I see Nicole's light is on, so I knock on her door: no answer.
"Nicole?" I whisper loudly, when I get no answer I assume she's asleep, so I walk in. The next thing I see is horrifying; Nicole is laying on the floor next to her bed, passed out, with huge gashes in her wrist.
"Shit, Nicole," I say carrying her to the bathroom attempting to stop the bleeding, luckily I succeed. "What the fuck were you thinking?" I begin to question
"I don't know, maybe I wasn't cut out to be the one living." She says drowsily.
"Why did you do it?" I ask with irritation and concern in my tone.
"Its none of your business!" she moans.
"Considering the fact I'm your guardian angel, I think it is my business."
"Ugh!"
"Nicole." I warn her, and she begins to cry.
"Dan and Aron!" She says in between sobs.
" What happened?"
"She's a two faced bitch and he's an idiotic douche!" She flings her arms up i n the air.
"So?"
"They're dating even tho she knows I'm in love with him!" She begins to scream in frustration and pull at her hair.
I bite my lop "I told you not to cry over guys because they're assholes!" She stands up and I flinch a little expecting a slap, but instead she kisses me and pushes me into her room and onto her bed. She pins me down on her bed, straddling my middle as we begin to French kiss. She begins to rub my sides, and I begin rubbing her back under her shirt. As soon as she starts to take my shirt off I stop her, and she begins to cry again.
"Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm so lonely!"
"Come here," I motion her to come sit on my lap, and she doe so. I wrap my arms around her "why are you so lonely?"
"Because I have no one!"
"What do you mean?!"
"You don't understand, no one understands, you'll never understand," She whispers getting under her blankets "Please just go away I want to go to sleep."
I hear light sniffs and I know she's crying.
When she crys it breaks my heart, I remember how genuinely happy she used to be. I feel a warm tear rush down my face and I know I'm crying, I don't know what to say. "Wh-why don't I understand?" I ask with a timid scratchy voice.
"You don't know what its like."
"What?"
"My life." She squeaks.
"What's wrong?"
"I'm alone, always alone. Moms at work, my friends don't really help, you've seen how I'm treated. Its like I'm just a shadow, no one notices it, everyone walks on it, useless." She said shaking her head reaching under her pillow and giving me a journal. I skim through reading and examining the pictures, its filled with beautiful, dark poetry and drawing. "Incredible." Is all I say. She sniffs and calms down grabbing her guitar.
"This song is stay by flyleaf its gorgeous, I feel as if her words describe who I am." She breaths pointing to a page in the journal with the title in cursive 'Stay'.
"Green light, Seven-Eleven.
You stop in for a pack of cigarettes, you dont smoke, don't even want to.
Hey now check your change.
Dressed up like a car crash.
Wheels are turning, but your upside down.
You say when he hits you, you don't mind.
Because when he hurts you, you feel alive.
Oh, is that what it is?
Red lights, gray morning, you stumble out a hole in the ground.
A vampire or a victim? It depends on who's around.
You used to stay in to watch the adverse, you could lip sing to the talk shows," She suddenly stops and starts to blush
"I um, don't usually sing for people." She looks down at her hands.
"You must like me then," I say and she begins to blush more. I pat her head "Goodnight Nicole."
"Goodnight." she's whispers. As soon as I shut her door I want to scoop her up in my arms and just cuddle with her until we both die of starvation.
"Fuck me!" I groan jumping up on to my bed, I wish I was an angel still.
I awake to my alarm clock telling me to wake up. I drowsily get out of bed, slide on a cat shirt and some black skinny jeans and straighten my hair lay wait for Nicole to finish getting ready. We walk in silence to James High, until Nicole entwines her fingers into mine. 'Fuck it' I think "Nicole, Tate, Stein, would you do me the honor of being my girlfriend?"
'Shit, what the hell did I just do?' I sort of begin to panic.
"Yeah." She chirps, and I breath out relieved.
We finish our walk to see Beth with electric blue hair with greyish highlights and Crystal with deep maroon hair.
"Um?" Crystal begins when Nicole just giggles.
"I'll cut your penis off if you hurt her." Beth laughs before they steel Nicole away from me.
"Phil, do you have any useful information for me?" I say hopefully.
"No, I'm sorry man, I've been trying to get ahold of Anthony, Ian, Toby, or anyone but I can't." He let's out a sigh of disappointment.
"Don't worry Phil, you'll do it." I say trying to get him to cheer up.
"I am sorry." He looks down at his shoes.
"I said it was okay." I laugh.
"Alright." He half smiles, and I smile back at him.
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Hello there! Sorry for the short chapter, please don't hate me for it! >u< I really have authors block, ugh, it sucks I have everything in my head but I can't put it into words, asdfghjkl, *clears throat* sorry, but trust me you'll be happy with the results. The song is "Stay" by Flyleaf.Okay bye!!! XD