chapter 18 : family matters

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"you don't want to come with me do you ??"

"Of course I do Lucian ... Things are just more complicated now . "

"I know things aren't great with you and Davina but you can still see Liveria can't you ?? I mean our kingdom has so many wonderful things ."

"Lucian you aren't listening to me ... I can't go with you because I can't get close to her ... All I want to do is talk to her and ask her why she let this happen . Why she never came looking for me . " She wiped her face wiping away the tears forming in her eyes .
" But I won't because I'm afraid of knowing I'm afraid that she didn't want me . "

"Your afraid she's like your father ."

She nodded .

"Elva I know Davina she is a sweet woman and she has always loved children I never put it together until now but maybe it's because she never got to raise her own .... I'm not saying you should open up to her right away .I'm just saying maybe you could just talk to her I'm sure there's an explanation ."

"But what would I even say ?? "

"Just start with asking her something simple like how she is doing .I mean this is alot for her too she lost her daughter for sixteen years thinking you were dead and now you just showed up ."

Elva thought for a moment " alright I'll do it ,but you have to help me ."

"How would I help you ??"

"Well before I talk to her I need some practice ,so your going to pretend to be my mother for the time being ."

"I ... Ok sure If it'll help ."

Elva smiled "well alright then ."

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"Are you ready yet ?? "

"No let's go over it one more time ."

"Elva we've gone over it enough your stalling ."

"No I'm not ,I just want to know what I'm doing is all "

"Elva."

"I'm not stalling !! "

"If you say so ."

"Lucian ,you have no idea what this feels like!! I have just found my mother someone who I never thought I would see ,she abandoned me and now I'm supposed to just forgive her and move on ??"

"Elva that's not what I .."

"You know I have no idea what I expected I mean you are a prince you've never known what it's like to grow up alone you've had a living family your whole life ... You had riches and castles and feasts . So how could I expect you to know any of this ?!"

Lucian stared at her .

"I'm sorry that was terrible for me to say ."

"Maybe ,but your right I don't know what it's like . I'm sorry elva . You have every right to be angry . Shall we practice one more time??"

She kissed him on the cheek .

"No ,I'm going to do it now ,thank you for your help ."

"Your very welcome ,I'm sure everything will go smoothly ."

"Hopefully "

She walked out . her palms sweaty and her thoughts a jumbled mess .

"Davina ??"

Davina looked up from her work .

"Elva ."

"Where did everyone go ??"

"Oh well queen Morana was going to give them a tour of her crystal garden . "

"Right . Well I came here to...talk to you . "

She nodded ."I'm sure you have many questions I'd be happy to answer them ."

"Ok " elva took a seat  across from her ."why didn't you want me ??"

Elva you idiot !! She thought .Lucian said start with smaller questions ,not dive into the deep end and hope you can swim !!

Davina looked hurt ,shocked even .

"Is that what you think ?!? ,That I didn't want you ??"

"What other explanation is there ??"

"I understand why you would think that , but elva I  never wanted this to happen. when you were a baby I looked at your face for the first time and I felt nothing but love ,you were so small and fragile and you needed me " her eyes teared up and her lip quivered. "I did want you elva ,but your father took you from my hands and carried you away . I was too weak to stop him ,but I would give anything to go back and prevent this ."

Elva was on the verge of tears ."so you loved me ??"

"I still do ,I know it's hard to understand and I know it's scary . But please just give me one chance to prove how much I care for you ."

Elva considered her words

"One more question ."

Davina nodded .

"Why didn't you go looking for me ??"

"Because you were meant to be kept secret . I wasn't married and if anyone found out I had a child I would be punished . But I did look for you when I could . King Cassian would visit your father ...king Darien. And I would go with to help the queen .I would search for any signs of a child living in the castle whenever I could ,but I never found anything . Turns out I was searching the wrong place . I'm so sorry you had to go through this ."

She reached out for Elva's hand but elva hesitated .

"Don't . You have your chance but you can't expect me to just forgive you ,I understand that it wasn't your fault but I can't just let you into my life so quickly you have to earn your way in just like everyone else ."

"I understand ,thank you ."

Elva stood up and walked away .

Davina smiled a sad smile as she wiped away her tears and continued back to her work .

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