1st POV: Mayuko's
What was the point in living with this child, when the father hated us? When the father turned his back on us? I knew Sehun was in love with me, but I felt just like a robot being programmed to be with a designated lover. Yes, I loved him, but because of the decisions he made, my heart broke away from him. I hurt so many people and now I and the baby were going to escape to a better place. This was the best...I thought. I just wanted to solve everyone's problem, even if that meant disappearing from this world. I would try again. Just once more.
With my eyes shut tight, salty tears dripped down on to my babies face, whom I was clutching close. He was awake and doing the unexpected. He was just wriggling around without any cries. Why can’t you cry?
Just once more.
I would take away another life along with mines, to pay the price. Just once more.
Slowly, I knelt down on the edge of the pool and my breaths harvested quickly and it felt as if my entire face was crying, while one thing was fixated on my mind.
Death.
Just once more.
My mind was completely clouded, pushing out any distinct noises, sight, touch, smell, and taste. All my five senses were suddenly gone and I was going to take the last breath of life now.
I tilted over and cried out inside in my mind as my body became one with the big pool of water. Slowly, my baby parted with my arms and my heart bled with the water filling my mouth and nose.
This time, it was goodbye.
Suddenly, before my eyes could stop looking at the light radiating through the pool, I caught glimpse of a beautiful face and his hand was reaching for me. In that moment, I recognized I wanted to live.
Why now?
My eyes shut, seeing a dull darkness with my last thoughts.
'Save my baby.'
After some time, I gasped suddenly and water shot out of my mouth. My arms lay on the concrete pavement of the side of the pool and then I heard sounds protruding from the side of me. I turned my head and weakly, and saw Sehun performing CPR on Kai.Jr. His face was stressed and read a crisis. He repeated the proper CPR for a baby and then I saw my baby breath.
Somehow Sehun managed to save us both.
But...
How could I have done this?
Why was I so weak to create the same act?
