Exotic Nights

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1st POV/Mayuko's

The ocean of my heart was now delivering my tears to my cheeks as they raced down briskly out doing my wild thoughts that coursed in my mind perpetually. My hand reached up wiping them away quickly wishing they would stop. Just right now I wanted it all to cease, to freeze in time.

I stride hastily, oblivious to where I was going in this hallway that was a grand maze for me but as long I was away from there, everything would be ok. At least that small part of me that I tucked away would be. Why does he try to pull me back in without even speaking a word as if he was a mime? He has no right. After all that pain and the cruel reality he slapped at me to push me away.

He doesn't want me to love him so does he want me to hate him? Then I will. I came to a halt when I felt my head cultivate to a dizzy spell and I put one hand to my head and the other to stomach. What's wrong with me?

The memories of seeing him in my most wonderful minutes began to replay in my mind that was slipping away from sanity.

"I love you."

"Your love for me wasn't actually one sided."

"Good. They didn't hurt you, right?"

"Please continue to watch over me."

Then the bad of it after over highlighted it all.

"You never know when someone is doing you wrong, do you!?!"

“You’re just a slut, like the rest of these girls, why would I want to date someone that killed her own parents."

"You are all that but why am I caring? Maybe I'm just jealous I can't fuck you up till you bleed, or make you my slut like Kai is doing you."

"Do you still not know how I feel or have you forgotten?"

I chased the sun and got left with the burns and solar flare as I am still watching, painfully and regretfully. I wasn't meant to be watching you. Now, I'm chasing a entire galaxy and now he is depending on me. Am I even worth all this fight?

Then the last words he said to me streamed in my mind.

That's right, hit me for not lo-"

The agony in my stomach twisted and got worse which made me put both of my hands on my stomach with a mewl coming off my lips. My eyes met a healthy lush green plant that was in a big pot of soil and I immediately ran over to it when I felt the rush of heat going through my throat and everything I just ate and more came out tainting the rich soil.

My nose reddened as the tears multiplied while I felt everything was empty and vulnerable in the inside of me from my stomach to my heart. I gripped the sides of the pot as I quivered and I felt another rush coming out, but liquid this time.