Death by Sea (Pernico fanfic)

Chapter 15: Don't do this (Percy's POV)

*Idk how long this will be... do you guys even like long chapters?*

Chapter 15: Don't do this (Percy's POV)

The worst part of drowning

is not the drowning. The lack of oxygen.

It's the feeling you get.

Sinking.

Slow

Despair.

Helplessness

I'm...

Scared

****

I couldn't stop the constant hammering in my chest. My whole body hurt and I slowly sat down, sliding against the wall. I held my head in my hands and felt my body shaking. I didn't know if I could cry anymore.

"Percy...?"

"Annabeth."
"Are... you okay?"

"No."

"How's Nico?" she asked.
"He's... probably suffering," I sighed. "I don't want him to die, Annabeth. I... I'm just so scared-"

"Relax, we're still working on it, I'm still going through a couple resources. We'll be able to find out a way if there is one. Nico won't be dying any time soon," Annabeth sat next to me, touching my shoulder with hers. In a friendly way, in a way to let me know she was here for me. For Nico.

"You and him kissed right?"
"Yeah," I blush a little, but I liked that we had already.

"I wonder..." Annabeth looked away for a moment. She took out a book and then sighed. "I'm going to need to talk to a couple Gods."

"Okay."
"Do you want to talk to Hades first? He is Nico's dad."
"I will."

"Be careful," Annabeth said and I just smiled weakly.
"Of course." I stand slowly and feel Annabeth's eyes on me still. I'm worried a little about the fact that I have to talk to Nico's father, but he's just the God of Death.

I can handle it.

*****

Hades looked like the type of God who was actually human. Nico resembled little of his father, but I could see the same pain and dark eyes. Perhaps that was Hades's doing, changing his own appearance.

"Jackson..." Hades sighed. I could see and hear Nico. My heart ached.

"Lord Hades. I'm... very sorry about Nico... and the Shadow."
"I don't blame you, Jackson. He loves you deeply," Hades smiles bitterly. I felt warm in my stomach at that, it felt good to be... loved.

"I love him too."
"I know you do. You're a brave... boy," Hades says begrudgingly. "You're good to Nico. Even if I disliked the fact that it was you."

"Thanks."

"You're welcome."

"Is there a way to get rid of the Shadow?" I asked quietly. "Look, if it means that I have to... give up something, I'll do it for him. I'd do anything for Nico

"It's not going to come to that," Hades sighed and rubbed his temples. "Nico is currently figuring it out with the Shadow."

"What?! Really-?"

"We cannot help him... and it could... destroy him from the inside out," Hades looks up at the ceiling and then closed his eyes. "He's... Maria's son. He's... a precious soul."
"Yeah... he is-"
"I can feel his soul in transit of life and death. He's in an in between state of life and death with this Shadow."

"Is there anything I can do to help him?" I ask.

"Be there for him," Hades says. "Be there for my son."

******

I don't know when it was I fell in love with Nico. I guess it was after I found out he liked me because I felt so... different. I felt like I had lost an opportunity I never got the chance to have... and it made me feel... sad. Frustrated.

Things I wouldn't know.

Things I couldn't know...

"Percy?" I look up, I see my own Dad. I don't know if he's here to scold me, to tell me about love, to tell me about boys... I don't know if I want that-

"Hi... Dad."
"How are you holding up?" he asked. He sat down next to me. We were sitting in front of this... small pond.

"Not well."

"Understandable. I was the same when you were... well, born," Poseidon smiled sheepishly. "There are things that... we learn in our lifetimes. About life and how things... tend to play out."
"Don't prepare me for Nico's death. I've seen plenty of death. I know how to handle it," I say simply.
"Yeah, but not a death of this kind."

"Stop talking like he'll die," I finally snap. "Nico is going to be fine and I'm... we're..." I feel my voice dying in my throat.
"I know," Poseidon smiled. He patted my shoulder and then left me alone with my thoughts. I didn't like the idea of Nico dying.

He couldn't die.

We still had so much to do together...

I still had yet to slap his ass in public... I wanted to kiss Nico in the snow.

What about the rain? Or making Will jealous? What about being able to hug Nico tightly after getting really cold? Or comforting him when he had a bad day? Or him comforting me with blushes and cute little kisses when I had a bad day? We still had yet to be a cute couple. He had yet to live!

"Damn it!" The water I had my feet in rippled and seemed to churn while I continued to think.

Nico should be able to see snow... I want to see his nose all red and his cheeks pink. I want to see how starkly his black would contrast with the white snow. Or kissing underwater? What about kissing until I couldn't breathe, until he couldn't breathe?

Death.

Fear.

Want.

Desire.

Rain.

Crying.

Tears.

Sensation.

I stood and gripped my hair. I couldn't do this, I couldn't handle it. I couldn't do this, I have to see him again, I can't bear it. I won't be able to stand it. He can't die, he can't die, he can't die! I run for the room and I see Lady Hestia at the entrance.

"Not now, Hero of Olympus," she smiled sadly. "Nico is fighting the final battle. If he wins, he will win, if he looses-"

"Damn it! I need to see him!"

"Relax, or else I'll be forced to use drastic measures," Hestia says calmly. "Percy, think about Nico."
"I am-!"

"He wouldn't want you to see him like this. Would he?"

"Don't do this," I sobbed. "Please, I need to see him, don't do this!"

"I have to... I'm sorry," Hestia says softly and hugs me tightly as I sob into her shoulder.

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*Weakly blows nose*
Percy is so VASTLY OOC it's painful. I'm so sorry, but I don't want mah bby to die!

-________- I just want cookies and sleep. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I JUST WANT PERNICO FLUFF. I JUST WANNA SEE MAH BBYS HAPPY

(ALSO) (can we pls talk about the Free! episode that just came out) (Makoharu is real. All my dreams are alive)

QOTC: Do you watch Free!?

AOTC: yEs. I am Makoharu trash, sorry. xD

Edit: Lol forgot to sign off.

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